It’s not okay to push your child away for so long, then try pull them back and use them as a rock when needed. Then, when they can’t cope with the weight of the world you have put on them, it’s not okay to treat them like they never did anything for you. They did everything they could, and then they had nothing left. Nothing.
your this para has given me real strength. I had the same childhood except that my mother never drinks. I am always in on and off relationship with her. I don't know what makes me to come back for her. I really don't know and every time I feel used.