Mar 11, 20182018: a radical experimentI love New Year’s resolutions, and I don’t think I’ll ever stop doing them, in one form or the other. I need my crutches to hobble into a new period. …New Years Resolutions2 min readNew Years Resolutions2 min read
Mar 5, 2018The trick to overcome fearNow. Now. Now. It’s a simple trick really, this one. And it works. It’s hard to keep doing it, but when I do it, it works. It does like this: to keep away fear, stay in the present. Fear cannot exist in the present, because everything is happening right now…Life Lessons2 min readLife Lessons2 min read
Mar 3, 2018Mature skinAnd now for something completely banal. I went to buy a new face-cream today, because the one I bought a couple of weeks ago seems to be making my skin flaky. Or, I want to believe it’s the cream that’s making my skin flaky. …Beauty2 min readBeauty2 min read
Mar 2, 2018What if I woke up tomorrow with exactly nothing to do?What if I woke up tomorrow with exactly nothing to do? What if I didn’t set my alarm to get up early and go to the pool? What if I didn’t do my accounts like I do every Saturday? What would happen if I didn’t do my accounts this week…Life Lessons2 min readLife Lessons2 min read
Mar 1, 2018I’m making myself sick — literally sick, as in splitting headaches and nausea — with duty and…I’m making myself sick — literally sick, as in splitting headaches and nausea — with duty and worrying about other’s opinions. It has to stop. I don’t know how to make it stop, but it has to stop. The guilt. What will they say, what will they think of me…Anxiety2 min readAnxiety2 min read
Feb 28, 2018I cried in the office todayIt was my kryptonite, again. Someone, a member of my team, telling me I had been unfair. Oh horror. Worse than that, I had, she believed, deliberately overlooked her expertise on an issue. I hadn’t taken her into consideration, and she was hurt. I understood her point of view. I…Workplace2 min readWorkplace2 min read
Feb 27, 2018Asking people what they think doesn’t workI used to run my department like it was a democracy. Everyone was entitled to an opinion, everyone had a vote. I wasn’t sure of my own opinions and decisions. Or, I kind of was, but I didn’t trust myself enough to enforce them. If I thought one thing and…Leadership2 min readLeadership2 min read
Feb 26, 2018This is not a good Medium postA full day, where a lot happened, and nothing happened. This is where it gets complicated again. I have no “moment” for today. I just got through it, and I got through it well — even better than I anticipated. That’s all I have to say for myself, and it’s…Medium2 min readMedium2 min read
Feb 25, 2018The purgeI’ve been purging my books, choosing those I do no longer want to own and disposing of them. As I work in a library, I know receiving used books as a “gift” is usually a problem. Libraries don’t have infinite space either, there comes a point when a book coming…Books3 min readBooks3 min read
Feb 24, 2018Here it is is again.Here it is is again. That moment. That moment that I hate, that seems so intrinsic to my life, to who I am. So unavoidable. Wigging out about what, for what? I hate it. I’ve talked about this with my therapist, with friends, with my boyfriend, with myself in my…Life2 min readLife2 min read
