Anna Maria Ballester

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2018: a radical experiment

I love New Year’s resolutions, and I don’t think I’ll ever stop doing them, in one form or the other. I need my crutches to hobble into a…

Mar 11, 2018

Mar 11, 2018

Anna Maria Ballester

The trick to overcome fear

Now. Now. Now.

Mar 5, 2018

Mar 5, 2018

Anna Maria Ballester

Mature skin

And now for something completely banal. I went to buy a new face-cream today, because the one I bought a couple of weeks ago seems to be…

Mar 3, 2018

Mar 3, 2018

Anna Maria Ballester

What if I woke up tomorrow with exactly nothing to do?

What if I didn’t set my alarm to get up early and go to the pool? What if I didn’t do my accounts like I do every Saturday? What would…

Mar 2, 2018

What if I woke up tomorrow with exactly nothing to do?

Mar 2, 2018

Anna Maria Ballester

I’m making myself sick — literally sick, as in splitting headaches and nausea — with duty and…

The constant anguish. It has to stop.

Mar 1, 2018

I’m making myself sick — literally sick, as in splitting headaches and nausea — with duty and…

Mar 1, 2018

Anna Maria Ballester

I cried in the office today

It was my kryptonite, again. Someone, a member of my team, telling me I had been unfair. Oh horror. Worse than that, I had, she believed…

Feb 28, 2018

Anna Maria Ballester

Asking people what they think doesn’t work

I used to run my department like it was a democracy. Everyone was entitled to an opinion, everyone had a vote. I wasn’t sure of my own…

Feb 27, 2018

Asking people what they think doesn’t work

Feb 27, 2018

Anna Maria Ballester

This is not a good Medium post

A full day, where a lot happened, and nothing happened. This is where it gets complicated again. I have no “moment” for today. I just got…

Feb 26, 2018

Anna Maria Ballester

The purge

I’ve been purging my books, choosing those I do no longer want to own and disposing of them. As I work in a library, I know receiving used…

Feb 25, 2018

Feb 25, 2018

Anna Maria Ballester

Here it is is again.

I hate it. I’ve talked about this with my therapist, with friends, with my boyfriend, with myself in my journal, I’ve written hundreds of…

Feb 24, 2018

Feb 24, 2018