Porous
Adj
having minute spaces or holes through which liquid or air may pass
not retentive or secure.
Precious, do you know how precious I am?
Damn!
Although I may appear to be hard
I’m fragile, malleable, my heart is severely scarred
It’s crazy because I’m in such high demand
Yet you were the one I most admired and
I’m like sand in your hands
My value is above any of your past, present or future compensation,
After numerous declarations, separations, reconnections and reflections,
I’ve come to terms with the fact we are
Porous
My Scars, They could never heal with you
If you were laying under me, my blood would continue to seep through
Porous
My heart,
It is bleeding as it’s beating…
Same old song, different beat same chorus
Porous
Do you even see me??? ( Neglected )
Are you even in tune? ( Dis C-O-N-N-E-C-T-E-D)
Can you even feel me?
How you hanging on depletes me?
‘Cause is it even real? I’m defeated
You can’t stand to see nobody else treat me, the way you know I deserve to be treated
When we were offline temporarily it was as if I were deleted.
In a loop…back online…the shit has just repeated
New song, same chorus…
Porous
You simply passing through
Yeahhhh…Passing through
The inconsistencies spilling over into every crevice of what you say and do, dialogues diluted and empty, saturated with surface chatter and business ke ke
Porous
Both you and me
Half truth stories,
Energy, half assed
Porous
WE BOTH KNOW THE DEADLINE JUST PASSED
You fail to follow through
I now recieve it from another
The complaints you make
You don’t even attempt to recover
What happened to “toilet tissue”? (Our code)
I no longer feel smothered
I no longer feel you…(chest pain)
I no longer feel
I know…I no longer hear you
It’s just seeping through
From you to me
Me to you
The stain
The disdain
I no longer know you
I can no longer refrain
From accepting the inevitable
Of What remains…
A slab of what was once to be (chest pain)
The more busy I get
The less of me you’ll hear and see
And even with my load I watered you, who watered me?
You would beg to differ, you did but barely
On one hand I’m like” girl why tf you tripping?”cause yeah at first I was the one who was always quitting always dipping
I guess I don’t know how to do the in between
Friendship shit still be feeling like “US” to me
I couldn’t even imagine, once upon a time
Going all day without you on my mind or on my line…
Now a whole day can go by and I swear I feel like crying cause I know someone somewhere would never let that be
A whole fucking day gone by without speaking to ME?
This is me!
Naw…B
You’ve taken me for granted
I hate that it’s come to this …
I REALLY can’t stand it,
You seeping through…
And the connection I tried to keep is only because I know what’s true…
And that is…
Once the bleeding stops
Once the weeping stops
On that last tear drop
I’ll be back to pouring into me and cease trying with you.
You said you wouldn’t hurt me
You said you weren’t them other guys
So why is my heart still bleeding?
Why are there tears in my eyes?
Nobody should be in limbo
Should never have to question
If what they feel is real
I will know that love when I feel that REAL love feel
No one has REALLY loved me bro
My whole life, it was lust and poppy show
Will I ever get it?
That God level love…the real deal
That can’t wait to talk to you, checking up on you throughout the day
That… imma show and prove love, not just say
That…i ain’t bout to play with you and about you I don’t play…
That…hold your hand and kiss you on the forehead everywhere we go
That…i don’t care who’s looking this PDA about to show
That…girl you glowing pregnancy type of glow
That…we just flowing making money and big moves typa flow
That…no matter where we go you open up the door…
That…passion, anywhere, in the kitchen on the floor
That…you don’t do it then slack when you get comfortable …cause with each other we never get that lax and comfortable
That…us holding each other and it don’t lead to fucking
That…genuine cuddle where we ain’t saying nothing but we saying something
I don’t wanna bleed through
I want someone to truly see me
And I see them too
I wanna seep into someone who wanna be seeped through…
Nothing but overflowing love
Porous
And all the blessings that await for us are FOR US
❤️ Cause how much longer can my one heart bleed?
