I made the mistake. I got so high I wanted to know whether you had any interest. I was very delusional. I didn’t know if what was happening was real to begin with. I used to go to meetings everyday and hope ok were there. I used to make up jokes or cute andectots on the car ride over to the meetings and when you say next to me I would say them. And get to see you smile and laugh. And brush your hair away from your face. I just wanted to know whether I had a chance.