depression It was a massive release for me to find [ReachOut] and find that [depression and anxiety] was normal and it happens to other people, people like me. I was 12 when I first started to feel useless and abandoned. I kept a journal, which I wrote in every day. I sometimes wrote that I wished I wasnโt alive, so that I wouldnโt hurt as much. When I was 15, I had a breakdown one day atโฆ