I AM DONE TRYING TO FIT IN.
Since i was a kid I was always accepted by people. I loved attention. People always called me cute because I had big cheeks. I had a lot of kids in my neighborhood that I played with. Since there was no computers back then I basically played outside every single day. The other reason is that our TV broke. But anyways I was happy. If I never did those things I would have never played sports.
This all changed when I got older. Since everybody was nice to me I learned I had to be nice to people. When I switched school for the first time I only had one of my friends with me. Then we became best friends. He was very smart and competitive. We studied together and played together.
Fast forward to 3 years ago. I landed at Dulles Airport. The people that worked there were very nice. So I thought I will be okay because I can make friends easily. Boiiiiiiiiiiiii was I wrongggggg. The first day of school was like a visit to hades. Kids here are so selfishhhh. I don’t know what they get from it but they only cared about themselves. How can you live in U.S.A and still be only thinking about yourself.
Fast forward about 8 months. I moved to another school. To be honest I didn’t want to come here. Making friends was so hard and after I succeeded I was forced to start again.
On October 9th I came to a boarding school in a small town. Let me be honest the first meal I had was awesome. But the kids looked at me like an alien. It’s like they have been locked up in a room and never seen a new person before. Later I asked my roommate how long they have been here. One was 9 years and the other was 6. And I understood why they looked confused.
Just in a week I hated life. I called home and wanted to go back. But my parents said no. I was called names like: fat, dumb, ugly, FOB (fresh of the boat), slow, e.t.c. I don’t want to say I got bullied because other people my age go through a lot of bad things. But I have got punched in the face and the kid never got punished for it, A teacher told me I was too fat and he said I will never lose weight. A teacher yelled at me and made me cry because I didn’t do a homework she gave on the first day. Even though she knew I didn’t speak English. And she gave me a quiz on the same day and counted it. Our soccer coach told me I couldn’t play soccer because I was too fat.
I am not mad at them anymore, because there are always losers everywhere who are angry because they failed in there own life and don’t want to see you succeed. At that time I was forced to keep all this anger inside of me. I tried to lose weight but I quit. That was until one day I saw my teacher go to the gym and she asked if I wanted to come.I dropped my backpack and got my shoes. Right when I got there I just turned on the treadmill and let all the anger out.
Since that day life has changed. And all the mean things people called me, all the things they said I wouldn’t was was my motivation. I started losing weight, had all A’s and B’s, my English improved, and since I couldn’t play soccer I started playing basketball and I am thankful I did.(I tried to play soccer this year but there was no way I could enjoy it.) Later that year I joined track, ran my first 5k and got 4th overall and 1st in my age group. Lost more weight because of track.
Now I am in high school. And I hate every single thing about it. High school and I are in a big war. I hate it because of peoples attitudes. People are mean. One time this girl dropped her book and I picked it up for her and she gave me a mean face. Do I care that she did that? NOOOOOOO. Is she stupid? YESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSs. Another one is after a soccer game I told one of my team mates “Good Job” and he replied “Shut the f**k up”
Therefore I don’t even live my life for my self. I live it just to prove those people I am not dumb or fat or stupid or a loser. I AM DONE TRYING TO FIT IN.
PLEASE HELP ME DO THIS BY SHARING. THIS MIGHT MAKE SOMEONE FEEL BETTER. JUST LIKE YOUTUBERS LIKE NIGAHIGA HELPED ME GO THROUGH MY HARD TIMES, SOME OF YOUR FRIENDS MIGHT BE HAVING TROUBLES SECRETLY, SO PLEASE SHARE. BECAUSE I KNOW I AM NOT THE ONLY ONE.