Just left the lab where I will do my monthly blood test to make sure I’m not pregnant and some other parameters that the doctor need to track. If the results are good I can receive my prescription of isotretinoin. I will only get a 30 day supply that is how much they track me and my reaction to the medicine. I even have an online profile, which was created to track my prescriptions. I think it’s required by the Dept of health and human services. Outside is nice, less humid and sunny. I’m so ready to start my treatment. I was thinking maybe I should have started in the summer versus the winter. Winter can be such a downer for me and one of the potential side effects of the medicine is change is mood and suicidal thoughts. God help me, I don’t want any of those side effects. Hopefully this writing will help me through also. I’m not sure what will happen, only the fear is trying to tell me what will happen. Today I choose not to listen to it and enjoy the day. Another step down.

