Unexpected camping weekend

I have a life. It’s mine and mine only. Sometimes we forget it and try to live someone else’s life. That’s bad. I thought about it and I concluded that the people who don’t listen to themselves, people who don’t love themselves are the real bad people out there. I’m writing this to clear my head, organise my mind, and to make things clear too. I don’t care what I have to write, I don’t care whether it takes 30 or 1 hour to write. This is an attempted expression of me telling myself to let it go, let go of the past, and just live your life. What the fuck is happening lately I’m very confused. Somedays I just want to flow with any direction the life gives me. That makes me enourmously happy at some points. Other days I want to break things. I want to create change and influence people in a good way. When that seems impossible to do so, I get back to being unemotional and sad. 
So day before yesterday, an unexpected but also expected thing happened. I was on my way home from work. When I took the long road home from Central Tower, an unexpected people awaited me at the corner of Stock Exchange. Should I be prepared for those situations, I guess I should be. But I wasn’t that day. It was my soon-to-be-ex girlfriend and their friends who have approached me. They asked me to go to this live music festival. So surprised I was, I wanted to them to wait for me there 5 minutes. And 2 minutes later I returned and we all went to that festival. It was awkward and exciting at the same time. I didn’t know what to tell my family so I just told them I was going away that festival. Whom I went with, I didn’t tell them. Long story short, I had a great time. We listened to our favorite band The Lemons and drank and sang along. Weather was warm and little windy which was okay for people who just wants to drink and dance. What’s gonna happen from now on, I could only guess. I stopped expecting things a long time ago. It gets me stressed and dissapointed. So have a good week everyone. This post was written and edited by a guy who is just as lost and confused as you. Cheers!