There is so much anger in me
Its ugly and unhealthy because im mad
Im angry and i want to break things
I want to feel the coldness of the lamp im holding as i throw it across the room,hear it shatter,jerk in awe
I want to strangle you. I want to be able to breathe the air that escapes you.
I want to fucking die.already.
I want to release this anger,it is there has been for so long. I suck is all i can think coz i do.
I hate it. Living inside this heap of bones and flesh. I hate myself. I hate how i am .i hatw how i think. And i most certainly hate the way life is turning out to be. I do not wanna live this. I just dont. And everytime that i think of cuttingyself into little pieces a piece of me actually grows more. Its a lie i tell myself who i am,its a lie. All these people who call themselves friends, are lies,all these maniacs driving me to believe they care, a big fat joke. A lie. Trust me on this. Its nothing but a lie. I pick up my phone n go through my call logs. The last i called someone just for fun was February, its august now. The only other social media i have is whatsapp. I scroll through my contact list. There is no one remotely amusing.
I became this. I tell myself. I pushed them all away. Iwas happy alone.* am happy alone
All these people they suck. I mean your best friend screwed you over,admit is as much as you want to believe it. She is never coming back.she was always too self absorbed if u ask me, you just started needing her more until you didnt care if she was evem alive. You hate her now. Yeah you do! Ik you want to love her and you love her but youll see. There are people you live with they are just blithering idiots. Fucking stupid if you may. And all of the others they dont count right. All these fake people are fake as hell and i hate them and i wish i would just die already.
I have anger and i have hate and i wish either i would just die. Or the world would end and that would be it.
Well i wish i were dead.
