How it’s like to be an introvert artist?
Hi Guys and good morning from Cologne, Germany. It is cold here and I am jetlegged. My skin is dry and peeling off because of the temperature and climate difference. Somehow, I struggle A LOT, more than ever before with traveling so much and gosh do we have a lot of traveling ahead of us (Sri Lanka-Germany-Croatia-another town in Croatia-Phillipines) in the next 4,5 weeks. I don’t know what’s going on inside of me because I once was so IN LOVE with traveling, exploring, getting around…
….and now it feels exactly the opposite…what once energized and excited me now drains and exhaustes me and I do not know how to deal with these emotions because I am so grateful for my life and everything I have and am capable of doing..However, I mean we are humans right?
And we have emotions for a reason…I know that they are just e-motions — a wave of feelings connected to past or future but still triggered and experienced in the present moment..So, yeah, I don’t know I guess I am growing and that is not always that easy especially when you have a marriage, tech start up, your own struggles and thoughts…
…I have problems finding balance these days and I feel a bit lost yet I know that pain and confusion arises when we have to learn and grow. I am very spiritually aware and pain is purification. Growth hurts, it has to. We learn so much more when we struggle than when we sit in comfort. However, I really crave comfort in form of having my own home. A place of my own, that’s what I dream about, that’s what I crave.
And I guess that’s understandable after 5 years of constant travels. I do not want to settle, I just wanna be more and have more control/ the option to just stay and to not go anywhere if I don’t want to. What are you currently dealing with? Is there anything you have in mind and want to let out, here is a safe space for you.❤️
With love ❤
Jen.
