to.be.great

It feels like getting to this pinnacle is everything to me. I want to be something of such magnitude in the future …

watching videos, seeing other people’s success, inspires me. what gets to me is that what I want still isn’t clear. as I learn their stories, it amazes me how some actually know exactly what it is to go after. I think that’s different. they aren’t necessarily ‘great’, they are gifted.

All of us don’t get the opportunity to have such a blessing. everyone else has to work really hard and hopefully gain those skills that come naturally to the gifted. I always wonder how it feels like. constant hours you have to put in. that dedication. such drive. even now I can’t find that. there’s still something in the way. That person always seems to be the person I’m facing right in the mirror. in life, i think he’s my ultimate frenemy who i can never get rid of.