Beginning to fall in love again.
People around me are scaling higher peaks.
Becoming CEOs, Harvard MBAs. Hiring folks to work for them. Becoming successful, one might say.
While I sit here unemployed, broke. Out of a relationship that I gave my all to. Broken, not knowing what I will do tomorrow morning.
Maybe this is all part of a plan. Maybe it will all work out somehow.
I know more about me though. I have baggage from an abusive childhood, need to take MMA to prevent depression, and am somehow completely in love with one particular girl. Something I never thought would happen.
And I will sleep alone today. Will sleep that way for a while. It is hard. It is quite difficult. And I dont know how I will do any of this.
I hope it works out someday. I cannot see myself doing anything else. Yes, I will not work the mainstream way. I somehow am completely in love with her. And will give everything for that.
I suppose I am growing up now. Maturity. Masculinity and feminity in balance. And a love for life, above all.
This is a great time to be me.