how do you know that you’re deeply in love?

Maybe when he’s standing in front of you, and that was you realize that you feel more in love with the memories than the person.

I don’t care if this is the end between two of us, i don’t care why we end up like this and i don’t care how it ended. I just remember how it began and how happy when you standing in front of me after hopelessly over work. How can i feel so tired with the world when i was deeply in love with someone who standing beside me? How happy it made me and i won’t regret this.

So far from that, we just feel so tired and the tears fall for no reason. They’re your strength, not your weakness. How i wish it would be the happiest thing at 01.27 in the midnight when i’m currently sitting near the window, in front of my laptop with a cup of matcha and with a beautiful view of new york city.

Solely i wish that it would be for you to be here and it will always that i wish. I never begging someone to stay awake at my appart just for a cup palm sugar latte coffee matching with my matcha in the middle of the night, but i wish it was you

that some quotes said

There was before you and there was during you.

For some reason, i never thought there would be an after you.

But there was, and i was in it.

maybe your “someday” is almost here.

No matter how the world tries to break me, i just remember that the first time i spoke with the capricorn nerd boy with his prettiest glasses sitting next to me with his busy laptop and a cup of palm sugar latte coffee, with his desperate looks and hiding his tears and suddenly denied something without realizing that he was talking to a woman he didn’t even know her name.

Is it a win or a loss? that’s when it all started.

Is it a bad or good thing? i can hardly tell, but it was something new. To say your name by gently over the sadness of what you have experienced that day, reminding me that every time your beautiful name get used it has a tinge of sadness.

Late night when our first date, late night talking with walking around along the edge of the lake, that was the moment i realize that

i was deeply in love,

with you

When it does not make sense why things had to end up like that way, i just remember that there was a room in our apartment to take day by day and to wipe away the sadness after the hard days. And maybe in that apartment there is endless boundless grace with all of sadness or happiness, the place is a witness.

And it was i realize that,

i was deeply in love.