Gratitude: A Years Journey
July 27, 2017: Grateful to be four months into my year long journey, and thinking that for Month 5 I’ll keep it very short and sweet. Try to pick one sentence (maybe two), or a quote to express the gratitude of the day. Today it was a lovely flight home and noticing a gorgeous sky and clouds out the window. I was somewhere between heaven and earth and thankful for the divine journey.
July 28, 2017: Happy to be home in Carmel, and grateful for the deep peace and quiet here. Though the two blue jays that share this property can be very vocal, I guess they are glad to see us! “The magic thing about home is that it feels good to leave, and it feels even better to come back.”- Wendy Wunder.
July 29, 2017: Woke up this morning to another day of deep California coastal fog, so headed inland a few miles to find sunshine. Grateful to find a deep blue, cloudless sky, warmth and sunshine a plenty in Carmel Valley. Then went looking for a quote on sunshine and found this…“ When you can’t find the sunshine, be the sunshine.”- Unknown. Will try to practice that suggestion often.
July 30, 2017: Fresh fruits and vegetables, straight from the farm, are my objects of gratitude today. I’ve always loved a farm stand, who doesn’t?! As a kid we had local farm stands in New Jersey with their luscious Beefsteak tomatoes, the Hampton’s it was crunchy corn so fresh that we’d eat it raw. Countless memories of crisp apples, sweet strawberries, jumbo watermelons…DELICIOUS! And I’m grateful to be living in a place that has an extravagant bounty of locally grown organic produce. Eat your fruits and vegies :)
July 31, 2017: I am truly blessed. I’ve known this for some time, and today I believe that I’m literally glowing with an I am blessed aura. Woke up to emerging sunshine, in the company of my loving and supportive partner, thought of my two precious children, walked four miles along the ocean, was thankful for my good health, felt alive and happy…Blessed.
August 1, 2017: Hummingbirds, butterflies and bees in abundance today. Looked up to see a beautiful hummingbird hovering just over my head…checking me out to see what kind of exotic flower I was! Gratitude to these beautiful creatures for working so hard on my garden and sharing the space and tasks of nurturing nature with me. “The butterfly counts not months but moments, and has time enough”- Rabindranath Tagore
August 2, 2017: Went to see a friends newborn today. So adorable and so innocent. It had been a very long time since I’d held a one week old baby, and it was beautiful to watch her and the loving family she was very luck y to have been born into. Went looking for a quote on babies and found this from Oscar Wilde, one of my favorites…“Children begin by loving their parents; as they grow older they judge them; sometimes they forgive them.” Grateful for my parents, my kids, this beautiful new baby girl that I held today, friends and most of all their forgiveness/acceptance of me and my foibles.
August 3, 2017: Been thinking a lot about change, and how scary, invigorating, beautiful and essential it can be. Sometimes all of those things at the same time. I’m a naturally curious person, love to learn and embrace new things and I’ve been feeling very blessed that a new path opened for me right when it needed to. As I told a friend today, I’m not sure exactly where things will lead, and for now I know deeply and happily that I’m where I need to be, doing what I need to be doing and gratefully allowing my future to unfold. “Change is the law of life. And those who look only to the past or present are certain to miss the future.”- John F. Kennedy
August 4, 2017: Grateful for the company of my very dear son and his girlfriend who drove from LA for a visit this weekend. How blessed I am to have a close relationship with my two grown children and feeling gratitude for the wonderful people that they have each become. I did a pretty great job raising them…if I do say so myself!! It was a beautiful day today from start to finish, and we really enjoyed cocktails in the garden on a warm, sunny evening, a walk to town watching the moon rise over Carmel, and dinner in a great new restaurant by my friends at Folktale winery. The Au Pear cocktail is genius.
August 5, 2017: Made it back to Big Sur today. Quite an adventure as we had to drive to the road closure, park in Pfeiffer Big Sur State Park, walk the one mile path under the failed bridge with 500ft of elevation back to Hwy 1, and then down the highway another 1.5 miles to Nepenthe. A delightful walk, blessedly quiet on the south side of the highway, and beautiful to absorb the high energy vibrations of this sacred land. Gratitude to everyone who is working to reopen the road, those who created the lovely path letting us in, and to the beautiful people at Nepenthe for continuing to do their thing despite the obstacles. Renewed!
August 6, 2017: Waking up with my kids in the house is a joy, and not the least bit diminished when they are adults. A beautiful morning hanging out with Jerry and Alison over breakfast and in the backyard, and a nice excursion to Carmel Valley to soak in the sunshine. Gratitude for their visit, their company and their love. And as a parent, still very relieved to get the text that they made it home safely!
August 7, 2017: My teabag had this wisdom for me this morning…“you don’t need love, you are the love”. And I loved that :) Wherever I went today, two white butterflies, were dancing in my view. Looking up the symbolism of white butterflies, I learned that they represent a pure soul. If they visit you at an important moment in your life, they may represent a guardian spirit, ushering you along the path of life. Gratitude beautiful white butterflies for guiding me and reminding me to continue with grace and joy.
August 8, 2017: Gratitude for my beautiful yoga community here in Carmel. Such depth, warmth and richness of experience. Tonight I was grounded by the words of a Nepalese monk, “It is the way it is, while it is , whatever it is, whoever it is…some mornings we wake up with joy, others with sorrow…it is the way it is…”
August 9, 2017: “Nature does not hurry, yet everything is accomplished.”- Laozi. Gratitude for the wisdom this morning Lao-tzu, and for my beautiful orchids who love it as much in Carmel as I do. This one has been continually blooming, with the exception of a two week rest, for nearly 10 months!
August 10, 2017: I’m always grateful for music. At times soothing, invigorating, nourishing, it can bring out emotions, speak to our hearts, minds, fears, loves. At other times it simply masks the noises that can irritate my misophonia. Tonight an opportunity to combine music, wine and good company…delightful.
August 11, 2017: This morning brought a very profound bit of teabag wisdom…”Without realizing who you are, happiness cannot come to you”- Yogi Bhagan. Gratitude for the time and perspective to more fully realize, and get happy!
August 12, 2017: Took a hilltop yoga class out in Carmel Valley. There was a couple in the group celebrating their 25th anniversary and the woman commented that doing yoga on a hilltop was on her bucket list. I hadn’t ever thought about that, but after experiencing the class, was overjoyed to know that it wouldn’t be a once in a lifetime thing for me. Such beauty, peace and joy, and grateful for the lovely group of people in whose company I had the pleasure to enjoy the experience. Nothing quite like being upside-down in downward dog and looking out to the hills, trees and all of nature. Namaste.
August 13, 2017: “Never love anybody who treats you like you are ordinary”- Oscar Wilde. I love Oscar Wilde’s thoughts and I love my partner who absolutely never treats me like I’m ordinary! Such fun to have him home, if briefly, this weekend and so grateful for his love and companionship. Walking, sunshine, the beach, chocolate covered bacon, wine, conversation, fog, watching the sheep at sunset, cuddling, comfort…XOXO babe.
August 14, 2017: Went to my first town hall meeting today. Jimmy Panetta, the new representative from the 20th District of CA, hosted the meeting. Listened to much criticism, concern and angst about our current President. Then went home to watch the tragic news from Charlottesville and the reality that this disaster of a leader couldn’t even rise to the occasion and condemn those responsible for a death caused by white supremacist terrorism. My mother would often tell me…”This too shall pass”, and I really hope she is right about it this time. Feeling grateful for my community of predominantly like minded people, for Michael Moore, the media (though wish they’d been as diligent during the election), and my beautiful mother and her infinite wisdom.
August 15, 2017: A sad day for the United States, humanity, reason, open-mindedness, progress, love and the democracy and equality that the country that I love stands for. I’m in disbelief at how low we have sunk in the name of greed and fear. Went searching for inspiration on democracy and freedom and found these two quotes that seemed to say a lot…”As I would not be a slave, so I would not be a master. This expresses my idea of democracy.”- Abraham Lincoln. And this from John Adams- “Remember, democracy never lasts long. It soon wastes, exhausts and murders itself. There never was a democracy yet that did not commit suicide.” Gratitude to have lived the first 62 years of my life in a democracy; hopeful yet uneasy about where we are headed.
August 16, 2017: “Plant kindness and gather love”- A proverb which says it all. Or to quote a line from my all time favorite song…”Why can’t we give love that one more chance?” Gratitude for a beautiful massage today and for the spiritual sensibility of my masseuse and this community. He had me draw a color card to inform our session, and this one seemed very appropriate!
August 17, 2017: Took a walk into town to look at the classic cars lining Ocean Ave during our annual “car week”. Saw a 1961 Cadillac El Dorado and go me thinking about my handsome daddy. He loved his Cadillacs and one was the color Bimini Beige with a brown soft top. My mother called it his mistress! Gratitude for my dad and just really wish he hadn’t left us way too soon. Also a beautiful afternoon of self care doing absolutely nothing, just sitting on a lounge chair in the company of my pet bluebird.
August 18, 2017: Went to a talk this evening by a local artist, Erin Gafill, whose family founded the iconic Big Sur restaurant Nepenthe. Her family history is so interesting and this talk focused on her great, great grandmother, Jane Galliard Powell. Jane was born into wealth, a well educated artist, married into additional wealth, and at one point she and her husband owned 75% of the land that now makes up Carmel-by-the-Sea. They helped found the town, create it’s bohemian and artistic culture, owned much of it, but she longed for something else. On her husband’s death, she walked away from it all never to return, losing much of her wealth in the stock market crash and the ensuing depression and war. Her story was fascinating, and a great reminder of the impermanence and fluidity of life.
August 19, 2017: A fun drive today in a fast Camaro. Out on River Road, past gorgeous farmland, miles of vineyards, a cactus farm and into the Santa Lucia Highlands and the Smith Family winery. Their summer customer appreciation party was a delight. Gratitude for the food, wine, music, beautiful scenery, good company and plenty of sunshine. Heaven on earth!
August 20, 2017: Took a very long walk across Pebble Beach today. It was closed for play due to the 2017 Concours D’Elegance, and it was joyous to be able to amble by the sea with virtually no one else in sight. Feeling extraordinarily grateful to live in a paradise and playground of nature! “Heaven is under our feet as well as over our heads.”- Henry David Thoreau
August 21, 2017: Feeling grateful for rose wine today. Funny how my taste in wine has changed over the years. Started as a white wine drinker, moved to strictly red only for many years. Found rose a few years ago, which has improved greatly from the days of sweet white zinfandels, and just love it!! Now I drink it all ;) Also grateful for the absolutely gorgeous sunset tonight. The bright orange sun reflecting on the water just before it dropped behind a thin layer of fog and then below the horizon.
August 22, 2017: A gloriously peaceful yoga class. At the end, during shavasana, our beautiful teacher walks us through a long, soothing, guided meditation. It’s blissful, and even if I try to pay attention, I find myself drifting off into another state of consciousness, somewhere between awake and asleep. Gratitude Krystle for your magic! “Sleep is the best meditation”- Dalai Lama
August 23, 2017: A long walk and an Au Pear cocktail, the perfect late afternoon! Gratitude to the creative team at Folktale and their new venture at Seventh & Dolores. The Au Pear…sparkling wine, pear liquor and St. Germain in a coupe glass with a twist. Absolutely divine!
August 24, 2017: Sharing my little patch of mother earth with some of her other creatures is such a pleasure. Gratitude for my blue jay friends who seem happy to share their home with us. Shared a bowl of grapes and cherries with one of them this afternoon, and so enjoyed watching him enjoy the fruits.
August 25, 2017: My Birthday!! Woke up missing my parents and thinking of them a lot on this day that they made possible. Enjoyed a beautiful day including a long drive to the Napa/Sonoma Valley, a guest appearance by Lebron James at lunch, wine tasting at a gorgeous hilltop vineyard, champagne cocktails and dinner. Deep gratitude for my beautiful life, spending the day in the company of three people that I cherish (xoxo to Franz, Jerry and Alison), sunshine and heat, and the rich aesthetic of the wine business that I enjoy as much as I do the fruit of their vines. Cheers to the good life and wishing myself many, many more glorious birthdays.
August 26, 2017: Wine, food and family were the themes of today, and feeling grateful for all copious quantities of all three! Awoke to sunshine, breakfast and a 10:30am tasting appointment. The Three Sticks Winery was in an old Adobe house from the 1800s, and has been renovated to absolute perfection. I desperately wanted to move in! And the wine was good enough that I am now a member of their wine club…Franz calls it a timeshare, as we’ll now be visiting 1–2x/year. Cheese tasting, lunch and tasting appointment number two at Gundlach Bundshu Winery. GBW is a family affair dating back to the 1850s, and our tour was led by a Bundshu who was born and raised on the farm. Our tour in an old Austrian Pinzgauer, included great stories of their family business. I was especially interested to learn that during Prohibition and for a period of fifty years, they had converted to a pear farm as their primary business. Have come to appreciate the idea of a family business and Rob Bundshu shared his gratitude for theirs. Also, loved the wine cave they had built into the hillside and we are now looking at properties with an eye to the potential for a future wine cave!