7:29 pm

February 11th, 2015 Now

I came back from school because I was depressed not because I didn’t want an education. I just dont know what I want and I don’t want to waste money figuring it out. I am one who has never been able to decide. Do you know how many sports I’ve tried? Anyway I need time and i’m being criticized for it. All that does is pressure me more and cause more depression and anxiety. My mind is fogged, how could I focus on my future.

Me and my boyfriend broke up. It was stupid, whatever, my fault. I always do this. When I met him I knew it was either him or nothing. I was about to take a vaction from relationships but I didn’t. I guess I can now. With my freedom I wanted to travel, go to school far away have life experiences, sleep around (safely,) and just experience other people and other ways of life. But I didn’t get to do any of that. He didnt want me to drink or party so I stayed in. Now I dont have friends or experiences. Im unacomplished. Im dissapointed. Although I blame him I did it willingly because I didnt need anyone else but him. Now, i’ve learned that I am the only person looking out for me. I’m going to run with that.