Suddenly it clicks, for a while

This morning I woke up, and I still feel the pain of yesterday. But I don’t feel sad anymore, I don’t feel like my world stopped. There is more to life than Mieke, more than a divorce she wants.

There is my beautiful kids, there is my beautiful bikes, my beautiful friends and loved ones. There is Lermontov and so many others that I would love to rediscover. For one day I will not worry about the bills that need to be paid. Not worry about anyone else than me. Today it is a day for me.

You know, I read the following quote:

Rock bottom became the solid foundation on which I rebuilt my life.

J.K. Rowling

And it’s the truth, and how to see things, I have nothing except, my kids, family, loved ones. And that is a whole lot. So thank you all for listening to me nag, nag and nag. To give me a shoulder, to give me hope. To be a light a sun, stronger than a black whole of negativity caused by others. Thank you for pulling me out. Though, I might be better today, I will still need you to pull me out from time to time.