Electric calm

9th Jan

Electric calm/help me die, I want to live

quiver into the unknown/full blown/out from every organ

Tabla brings me to tears/I with it/it with they/

Hey,

the other is a god now

never otherwise

you restore my faith in vibes

no guise/your eyes-hypnotic-magnetise/heroine spins/

holds thumb to ring finger/it begins

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“so you don’t force change, you allow for evolution” Alison

“I believe in fairies & goths” Jojo / “this water is for cows & goats” Guide/ “my destiny is nature & beauty” Jojo’s friend when he was young in body and wise of heart

10th Jan

Only with utter honesty/only with mouthing that which is felt and hardly ever said/the niggle of insecurity will giggle no more if thrust out into the world/be not ashamed/our fears deserve to be heard/let us dilute them in darkness/whispering in blind sight of luminous vision&mission/to grow past the hurtful names we call ourselves when only ourselves are listening

11th Jan

You are trying my time here into tying knots/in being seen the///when people truly see you, you are forced to see yourself/and suddenly I can’t find my pen/and I’ll write this down tomorrow/as ego tries to keep it’s self shelf just out of reach/just unseen/glimpsed and then forgotten- this doesn’t like to be written down so much my pen is running out/ “am I being talked about?”- experience fed delusion of a now unfounded darkside/every one is family/am I changing my writing for the reader?/important to know/important to see the self/to shift/sieved/slight/perspective- and laugh as battles melt