Not Available.
Because My world was only just starting ,
and everything was yet to be invented,
I made my own rules.
I Wanted to wake up and stay comfy , cozy , safe… There wasn’t such a big desire that could wrap me up just in seconds that i d be capable to ignore because , the thing is , even though you try to build a barrier between your brain most conscious decisions and real time life, reality will always try to take a lead on you.

So, i told myself.. Is it necessary ? how much of it you need to finally understand that enough is enough, and guess what the answer was pretty simple : Money. I had to look for a way to react properly without showing any sign of my mood feel ( as always) to drive on the day that i was having. During the first 3 hours Signs were pretty clear 1- I missed my coffee 2- My hair was a mess 3- i miss a very important conference call.
Due to all this, it was 11 A.M, i took a long breath and said : -You Must Follow the signs, Environment is toxic- I got the chance to talk with a friend who’s always I mean ALWAYS there to hear these silly meditations, we go now and then discussing topics about everything and anything and he said “ Losing yourself is the only way your body will stand tall, environment has a lot to be with and you can’t avoid “. I think , losing yourself only takes a second, deep down , that was all i asked for at the moment.

I wasn’t available. I wasn’t emotionally available and that was just fine.-
At the end of the day i smiled, better times will come and i must work with what i have now… Just a few more hours, a few more.. Money.