Nicely done. It’s damned hard to decide to save yourself when you’re feeling worthless as it is to attempt suicide. I’ve considered suicide on a few darkest of days. But, I want to see my lad grow up and I want to be there for him if he falls down so to speak. I’d miss the sun coming up and going down, and listening to music and reading a great book and all of the better aspects of life. I now accept that people are shit, uncaring and are unreliable. Not all. But mostly. Don’t rely on anyone. But accept the surprise when you do meet someone who breaks the norm.
Be good to yourself, be kind, expect nothing and wait for the sun to rise tomorrow.