“Who are you voting for Daddy?”

Family voting in the primary.

UPDATE 2: Thanks to the comments, I have been informed my vote for Evan McMullin will not count in North Carolina. Read here. Now I am back to where I was a week ago.

UPDATE 10/25/16: I have decided to support a candidate. I will be voting Evan McMullin. He is a 3rd Party Write-in candidate in North Carolina. See below.

For weeks my six-year-old has been asking me who I am going to vote for. I have honestly replied, “I am not sure.” For the first time in my voting tenure, I have spent much of the election process in the undecided category. (I wish a pollster had called me while I was undecided!)

After a political commercial during a football game, my oldest son asked me again. This time, I muted the game and explained what I had been wrestling with for months but had come to a breaking point after the latest tapes reported by The Washington Post (former employer).

As a believer in Jesus Christ, my number one reason for living is to glorify the one true God that created me in His image and sent His Son to suffer for my mistakes and sins against Him. I try to glorify Him by worshiping and serving Him and I strive daily to be more Christ-like knowing I am prideful, sinful, disgraceful and inadequate without God’s grace.

Both my sons know that about me. They know first-hand that I make mistakes like when I might have gone too far yelling at the football game today. But they also know I apologize to them and ask them to forgive me. Integrity is something we talk a lot about. “May your yes be yes and your no be no,” are scriptural words that often come up at the dinner table or riding down the road. We talk about respecting their mother and putting her feelings before their own, something I pray translates to their future girlfriends, wives and all women they know.

Every time we have food from another country, we pray for those people. In their few years on earth they have traveled and served refugees overseas that they pray for often and sometimes by name. They also know about innovation, how to build prototypes and enjoy playing entrepreneur, all while learning who the true creator is and how to be generous with what God gives us through our hard work.

So how can I vote for a man who has proven time and time again to be the opposite of the person I want my sons to be? A selfish person that has lied and only apologized after getting caught. A person that has disrespected women, lived an adulterous life without remorse and claims to have sexually-assaulted women. A person that makes racist comments and has no compassion for refugees and I assume could not call one by name. A person who has more money than he knows what to do with but journalists have struggled to find examples of him being generous with it.

The Bible says in 2 Timothy to avoid such people that “will be lovers of self, lovers of money, proud, arrogant, abusive, disobedient to their parents, ungrateful, unholy, heartless, unappeasable, slanderous, without self-control, brutal, not loving good, treacherous, reckless, swollen with conceit, lovers of pleasure rather than lovers of God, having the appearance of godliness, but denying its power.”

How can I vote for someone who is the opposite of what I want my sons to be?

I can’t.

I explained to my oldest son that Donald Trump has done many things wrong, some things I cannot tell him about. Things that God can forgive but Trump does not seem to be asking forgiveness for. Then I tried to take all of these things I had been wrestling with and bring them to a six-year-old level. “Part of having good character is standing up for truth and the way things should be, not just going with the way things are. I can’t vote for Trump because he is not a good man.”

That was the end of the conversation and we returned to watching UNC get beat by the Hokies in the rain. But after the boys went to bed, I continued to struggle with my thoughts.

Now I must answer the question, can I vote for Hillary Clinton? I don’t think Hillary Clinton is an honest person but the main thing that keeps me from supporting Clinton is one issue.

This past year, 600,000 children were killed because of policies she supports under the banner of women’s rights. Yes, women have rights and women should be respected and honored in our society but children also have rights. All children should also be respected and honored in our society no matter the age. If elected, Clinton will continue supporting the right to kill the children God has created in His image. Children He loves and so should we.

Even though I don’t think Hillary Clinton is as “bad” of a candidate as Donald Trump, how can I vote for a candidate that has such a non-biblical view and will continue to fight for something I so strongly believe in?

I can’t.

I have heard and read all the arguments that a third party vote, to abstain or to write in a different name is essentially a vote for Hillary Clinton. “Essentially” is not actually. Is a short-term political gain for a single office in one of the 197 countries of this world worth compromising my values in the life-long battle God has called us to? (Influenced by Matt Arildsen)

Just because these are the only choices (this year), does not make it right to vote for either of them. Unless God convinces me otherwise over the next 30 days, I will have to walk out of the voting booth abstaining on the presidential box.

UPDATE 10/26/16: With just a few days left, I guess God, 0r maybe just some smart people I respect, convinced my otherwise. I have decided to support Evan McMullin. He is a 3rd Party Write-in candidate in North Carolina. I think he is an honorable and honest man. I agree with him on the most important issued listed above. I disagree with him on certain issue but those are not as important and I feel much better voting for someone I respect than one of the other more popular candidates.