And so it starts again

So once upon a time I used to blog, tried my hand at everyday writing, and it worked, ok it worked for a while. Then I became busy, ok busier, and on and on, then something happened I stopped, for no obvious real reason, I just stopped. I could try and blame life, work, etc. but really it was just me.

So what am I doing here now, well I guess another thing has happened, once upon a time I was fit, ironman fit, I was big, bodybuilder big, but now not so much. Instead I’m a confused 40 something male without a clear direction, regarding what fitness is or isn’t, what a healthy diet is or isn’t, running from one quick fix to another. These quick fixes take me from full on training bouts, loose weight, get faster, to complete shutdown, eat my world in bad choice food… you know the kind you know you really shouldn’t even remotely eat… cheese naan anyone?

Ok so this is what gives, I have a full on work life with lots of travel and nowhere near enough time at home with my family, (5 month old, 4 year old and a 15 year old). When life gets stressful, I reach to chocolate, sweets, puddings (this both dates me and tells you from which part of the planet I hail), so comfort is found in food. I try to cheat the system by going No Sugar No Grain (Paleo, or whatever else you want to call it), fact is I’m always looking for a quick win, a fast fix…. you know the sad thing I’m not really overweight, I’m about 176lbs I’m 5ft 9 on a good day…

So I’m really going to use this as a thing, as an outlet for my head, is it really ok to have the crap inside my head about my weight, body issues… I’m back at the gym, mostly so I can use the treadmills as a no excuses get the running done, but I find myself thinking of lifting weights again…. before I know it I’ll be doing pyramid sets, and isolating muscles… I’ll be big but not big enough, one day muscle bound, the next water logged, soft and fat…

See that’s the kind of stuff that just floats around in my head, sometimes preventing me from moving forward, acheiving …. I could just be easily distracted…

Anyway I will talk about other stuff on here… but mostly it’ll be this…