Moving Forward.

Stuck in Nostalgia.

“I really do have a hard time letting go of things, especially if there are good memories attached to it.” – Draft Tweet.

Today I realised I really do have an almost infinite love for people and things that I share a good memories with. Letting go is something I’ve never been too good at, and I don’t think I’ve ever openly admitted that to myself until now. I’ve been told many times before by close friends, but it’s like one of those things you just nod and laugh off (kinda) but today it hit me, like wow, I really haven’t moved on from certain things.

It’s only hit me today because I noticed that I literally haven’t moved any more than two steps away from anything that I should’ve let go of a long time ago.

For instance I was chilling going through my camera roll looking at old pictures and came across a picture of my first car, nice little silver punto I had :), lovely little whip.

Then I started to get this feeling, like ‘wow I really miss this car’ .. The thing is I crashed it over a year ago, like wrote it off completely and before i scrolled to the next picture another feeling of ‘wtf, you crashed this car a year ago. That was a long time ago, you could’ve got another one ages ago’ came over me lol. That was kinda like my wake up call saying ‘you’re still moping over this car, if you wanted another one or something even better you wouldve got it sorted a long time ago mate’. *I could actually apply the same – i miss… that was a long time ago… if you wanted a new one…- algorithm to alot of things tbh*

For a while now I’ve felt like I’ve been stagnant, when it comes to work, relationships and things in general, and I think that my fault comes from trying to look for things I’ve come across in past experiences, in new people and places.

Right now I feel like that *snap* has woken a new chapter where I feel like it’s time to let go of certain things in order to move forward and get the best out of this thing called life.

And I’m not saying that I’m just gonna delete tonnes of old pictures or cut truckloads of people off because of this, it’s just a new understanding that living for today but wishing for things to be like yesterday doesn’t make sense… if that makes sense.

- A post inpsiried by my old car, cilvia Demo, Hunter x Hunter, Adidas climacools, baby photos and Twitter.