S. Patterson
9 min readMay 20, 2024

What I personally think could be happening and how the NHI are participating in disclosure.

I sit with this a lot. Out of all the hypotheses out there, I wonder if this is an NHI that is so completely foreign as for us not to have many touch points from which to relate. As it very probably would be. That it reflects parts of ourselves back to us as a means to create a language of some sort to communicate with us in an attempt to relate to us. And if so, my complete push-back against my free-will being violated, to a species that has no such concept, has created a darker experience of this “language” for me, or something else about me is being reflected back here, perhaps my overly independent nature which reacted so strongly against this violation. That is also very, very possible and I do consider this theory quite a lot.

What if this NHI or other NHIs don’t reside mainly in the physical world we inhabit but in our collective unconsciousness, and these physical manifestations are its expressions, that it is advanced enough to transmute material into the physical world and/or perhaps we are also, as Jesus and other spiritual masters have done, but we need to wake up more to that fact. Perhaps we are doing the same thing at some deep level and living in a “shared dream” as philosophers have said.. and just aren’t consciously aware of it yet and so, not yet able to master it? Could the NHI be using Jungian archetypes from that space to relate with us. I think Vallee/Darren King get into a lot of this.

Perhaps to acknowledge it would then be to have to fully realize there is only one of us actually here, that our collective unconscious is the root that we all come from as well as all of physical reality, as some yogis believe (Advaita Vedanta) and until we fully realize that, communicating with it will be troublesome, ineffective and painful for us because it is far more evolved than us intellectually, psychologically and spiritually.

And to go more deeply into this last point, as I think this is key to at least my personal complete terror that occurred in my abductions when around them: I also hypothesize their telepathic nature, and perhaps even hive-mind, no-secrets conciousness evokes ego-death in a human. And as some spiritual teachers have taught us in the non-dual traditions ego-death evokes a feeling in a human that can be even scarier than facing physical death, for it feels like the death of our very individuation. That is all that most of us have ever known ourselves to be.

This equates communicating with them to the death of ourselves and all we have ever known. When faced with that process slowly perhaps through a natural, physical, dying process such as old age, that may be one thing, when faced with it instantly via an abduction/kidnapping and fear for one’s life by a massively confusing experience of aliens and their craft, a very different, immediate and startling terror beyond words can happen. At least it certainly did for me. And I think out of love and compassion for humanity, we need to learn from this in how things should be laid out in a post-disclosure world.

Yet, as paradoxes go, while in my experience I can say that they certainly seemed to have mostly ill intent and zero respect for my free will (maybe this doesn’t exist for them?) I do hypothesize communicating with them in itself could lead to very rapid advancement in our spirituality for those that are psychologically and spiritually capable, and brave enough, to do so. Are there humans capable and brave enough of jumping off a cliff into infinity? I have actually met a few. And yes, I am suggesting an enlightenment period where each and everyone able to do this would surrender to their highest Christ/Buddha/Self/beyond-words-or-description-nature which leads back to that root where we recognize all are one. I don’t think this would be instantaneous for most, as the vast majority of abductees/experiencers are not, but I do believe over time and with intention, as more humans entered the state it would have a cascading effect for the remainder of humanity.

So then could these be the “angels” or “demons”, those overly emotionally charged words that were all our ancestors had in their primitive ages to even attempt to possibly get anywhere near describing them? Perhaps they aren’t either as evil nor as good as “devils” and “angels”. Or the word “Jinn” may be better, as Jim Semivan and others have suggested, which included both good and evil in that definition. Whatever they are, and seem to change for the invidivual involved I don’t think being fearful of them is the way to go, nor project old definitions that are limiting and locking us into a single frame of reference.

I do think they have been here for a very long time, if not forever, and we have related to them previously in the ways for which we were capable in those ages. It has been hypothesized that they are us in some form and even reflect back what is available in that moment in the experiencers mind, using it for the “language” as Grant Cameron and Jospeh Burke has suggested. Could this be an “anything you want reality field?”. They have continued to change in appearance and agency over time as we have been able to understand them. I believe even talking about them raises consciousness in a direction toward ego-death.

Two more things here to take us on a sideroad for a minute, as I think it is worthwhile. Are they in their highest, most surrendered spiritual states for their species? I ask this if in fact I hypothesize correctly that communication with them may eventually lead to ours, would they be there already in order to do so? And if so, what does that mean? Were they always in this state since they were created or what was their evolutionary path, if they had one?

Secondly, I believe this is also part of why the stigma is so easy to reinforce. That humanity senses this ego-death, as seen in various media, there is an undertone of death and rebirth into a new positive era, I believe. How could this play out in a disclosure situation? Well firstly, it could create fear. Unfortunately, I see the world as a mystical place, but I also see it as mostly being controlled by greed and those in power are mostly egomaniacs and sociopaths. The more egoic a person is, the more fear they will have of their ego-death and the worst thing that can be introduced to them in this situation is more fear, shame and guilt. This may take generations, and that is ok. It has actually already started. Of course it has. That is why we are where we are right now. We are probably about 30% through by my complete finger in the wind guess. The next major milestone will be a greater amount of disclosure. As more truth is affirmed I believe there will be an initial shockwave of utter confusion. As things stabilize it is going to be up to the NHIs for how they want to relate to humanity as we go forward. I personally think this element will need to be done in the most sensitive manner. Perhaps the NHIs (I am still unclear if there are more than 1, the lore suggests many, the ex-intelligence officers seem to allude to a single type, the Greys) will have a better plan if they have done this with other species before. Kind of like what we have seen on Star Trek.

There will certainly be people that are ready and move spiritually into personal evolution through controlled interactions with NHI (a Grey in every town square you can approach at YOUR will, they never move toward, physically and metaphorically?). I do feel I know humanity however, and certainly those ego-manics are going to fear the experience of ego-death and potentially go truly insane with attempts to paint what is happening in ways that are filtered through their fked up minds, and use these ploys to their advantage to gain money and power in the sitution, as they have done their whole lives.

I experienced complete and utter terror which, if I had an option to commit suicide to escape, I would have during my abductions. And I have spent most of my life pursuing spiritual interests, therapy and self-transformational opportunities. I sat in front of a guru for many years. Hopefully I have some self-awareness or at least know the principles. I can’t imagine those without those principles and how this will impact them. And to be fair, we as humanity have rewarded them for doing that. I mentioned egomaniacs and sociopaths. Yes, it takes two to tango and in this new space approaching we must all look at our opportunities for growth and be radically honest. Why am I even writing this and not on the street with a sign, or feeding the homeless, or looking for service opportunities to change this? Why is there money in my savings account right now when there are people starving? Yes I am part of this, we all are and all have had a part to play to get us to this point of change. This can all be used for our fuel and will be, but honesty, self-awareness and forgiveness of self and others will be the key to avoid the greatest levels of fear and pain. Sound familiar? We have already been taught these spiritual principles they will just become more important under this intensity.

What would it be like to walk around naked all day, say at a nudist colony? Now add into that a megaphone and monitor attached to your brain and every thought and all elements of your entire life are revealed to all of humanity? Yes, this is going to be intense for some people. Ultimately I believe it will lead to a greater self and human actualization than we have ever experienced before. It will be the beginning of a whole new epoch and a leaving of the Kali Yuga to the next cycle. Everything before in history will have been Chapter 1.

It will of course be all about the pacing, allowing those interested to step forward, those in fear to step back, and again most likely take generations as for some people, they may just not have the psychological agility to understand their bias’ and change. Hopefully the yogic siddhis will come to those in the enlighted state, and the joy states will be felt by those in fear and heal them, and this of course will speed things up. The fear will be gone I hope. Let’s look to what Jesus and Buddha did. I have to believe this will not be a nightmare, but beautiful. Even if at first many believe it is in fact a nightmare as they are filtering it through their fear of ego-death.

This will be due to their own ego’s, and their “worshipping of the idol of their ego” getting in the way of their spiritual development. I think it will be binary, those in the non-dual state and those not yet realized. With different realities for each. What to do now to prepare for the needed psychological agility? I don’t know, but for me it has been yoga and Zen Buddhism. Neither are religions and compatible with all religions. Most religions also have esoteric or gnostic teachings however, and from my limited dabbling, seem to point back to these concepts, like Kabbalah for those who are Jewish, Gnostic Christianity, etc. If you have other ideas please share in the comments section below in case those can be helpful to others.

Maybe this is happening slowly. Maybe this other intelligence has been here forever and we are just evolving enough that more and more of us are now able to communicate with it. As if there are additional levels to Maslow’s Hierarchy of Needs that humankind is now capable of achieving that allow further psychological and/or anatomical brain development than was previously known. It would make sense we could have a much further capacity yet to grow into and ahead of us as we each personally develop and also evolve as a species. Why do so many people seem to presume all that stops when we are young adults?

We have much more secure living conditions in the West and mostly worldwide than even our most recent ancestors. We also have much longer lives for development of all types. It is a new time for humanity of course, where a lot of what was known is now in a state of very fast and rapid exponential growth.

See how easy it is to ponder and make things up that are likely far more complex than whatever is probably really happening to begin with? The truth wants to be free. Can’t we just let it be free?

I would love to examine the physical evidence that has been testified to Congress about, of crafts and bodies via material science while simultaneously having those interested explore these non-material aspects around their and our psychic abilities, consciousness and how these intersect with reality. I would personally love to know about both.