Not a good day, waiting I think in vain to feel better. Have won more box sets from the Sky Community. It was a caption contest.

Don’t think I have ever understood or successfully navigated society. It was never anything easy, always something to be thought about, never a natural way for me to behave.

Life is a most peculiar experience. Rather lonely in that we are locked inside our own thoughts and feelings with no accurate way to share with another human being, no ability to merge and experience the reality of others.

Wondered what the light brown stains were on the monoblocking – the leaves are falling and wet.

As bedtime approaches I can only reflect that this has not been a very good day. Did pray the Rosary at midday. I know God loves me. It ought to be enough. I find it hard to accept when I don’t like myself very much.