Conversations

those petty little things


Conversations! My life kind of revolves around them. Each one of them, a different experience. And yet the same. An exchange of ideas, thoughts, visions, dreams. A flow of emotions. The truest of them being a mirror to the soul.

It’s surprising what simple conversations can reveal about people’s personality, their way of thinking. If you’re good at it- you can even read between the lines- so to say. Understand what the person really wants to tell. And trust me, this little skill comes really handy. Especially with that special someone- if you know what I mean!

Being a simple college student (did I say ‘simple’-oh sorry, my bad!); my conversations are about the general topics! Weirdly enough, I can’t really stand girly chit-chats! The ‘oohhhs’, ‘aahhhss’ ‘aawwiiiee-s’ and incessant giggling gets too much for me! Not that I’m a tomboy, just not girly! (if that makes any sense to you)

So, you might be wondering why im having this one-sided conversation, blabbering on and on about the most ‘taken-for-granted-act’. That’s because this random thought just popped in my mind-

EVERY DAY YOU LEARN SOMETHING NEW!

Every single day, we have innumerable little discussions, arguments, interviews, gossip rounds and what not! And every day these teach us something more about something little.

Something that shocks you, something that surprises you. That little fact about some close friend that makes you reels back in bewilderment. That unbelievable truth about a distant person that makes them close somehow. We experience a number of emotions in our daily lives; joy, sadness, hope, anger, despair, excitement, frustration, pride, shame and on and on. Sit down once in a while ,and try to go to the root of any 5 emotions you felt that day. I can bet they all would have come from some little news or fact or gossip or rumour or plain information you would have learned. And it doesn’t just include stuff about others. OH NO! the strongest of emotions are when you learn something new about your own self. When you discover a little more about the real you, when you challenge yourself just a little it more.

So what if at the time the topic seems petty, irrelevant or even too mature. Hell, playing cops and robbers sure was above your pay grade in 1st standard; you know the whole issue of good v/s bad and all that — but let us not get carried away. The point remains that every single communication leads our thoughts, our views and our ideas in a different yet improvised direction. They guide you towards the person you really are, albeit in a non-conventional way. But you have to remain hopeful, the doors of the mind unlocked, windows rolled down and then you’ll enjoy the real drive. The wind whipping in your face, carrying with it the scent of a stranger you have met. The green pastures slowly fading away , leaving behind undiluted images of beautiful memories, imprinted experiences and the shadow of those emotions that will ignite at the softest touch. So, I cherish long talkative conversations, of lives lived and lives left; of promises kept and words broken; of cold irrational thoughts that matter more than the sweet nothings; of worlds in other universes- hauntingly far, yet excruciatingly close. Because these define the little moments that- pixel by pixel- spread across the canvass of my life. Because everyday you learn something new; everyday you LIVE a little MORE!

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