Blue is the Sentimental Color
The chroma-miracle of my favorite hue
Hello there, Gicch right here!
Sorry for spending more time for KaigaiHikakiner that I forgot to write for my own!
Actually this one was inspired by what Hikakin worn to the UUUM Listing Ceremony on the Tokyo Stock Exchange yesterday, but I decided to publish it here since this story was based on what the blue suits did to me psychologically.
August 29, I decided to draw again after 10 days. I drafted Hajilkin but suddenly my heart said to draw the Niigata Playmates (Seikin, Hikakin, and Masuo) from Hikakin’s tweet, which happened to be when they’re holding a fireworks party to celebrate the end of summer and Hikakin’s 5M.
Ah, yes! That’s why yesterday’s HikakinTV and SeikinTV are uploaded really early!
What’s on my image is me sneaking to those three as a male; I admit I watched too much Hana-Kimi Ikemen Paradise 2011 — the one with Acchan on it — with my aunt lately so that image projected strongly.
So I started sketching the draft in light blue pencil with all different pose composition, but it didn’t work out, so I wash my face for a while then went back to my sketchbook. “I might need to alter the composition, eh?”
I scrolled through my Twitter feed and found that a mutual edited that photo in a delusional fangirl way that looked like she went together with Hikakin.
“Hmph, such delusional fangirls.” I said, without realizing the envy deep down my heart that said, “Hmm but that’s worth to draw, another couple study eh?”
Afterwards, I decided to alter the composition. Then I found an old photo of mine wearing a super cute blue yukata I bought online for Chishiki Taikai last year which I used as my reference. I don’t think this will fit to the color palette but then I decided to alter it a bit.
The color palette is now mostly blue, my favorite. I put on my cringey love song playlist to milk the vibe, I’m working on it while accompanied by the melodramatic tunes of the playlist and I finished at 2 AM.
I laughed really hard when I found out the results the next morning, “AH SHIT! I KNOW THIS IS GONNA BE EMBARRASSING” but I uploaded it anyway. Then I wrote on the caption:
“Seeing the End-of-Summer Fireworks with Oyabunbun!” This looks embarrassing but also put a smile on my face when I draw it!
and I didn’t know the response from my fellow Hikakin fans could make me blush, especially when they pointed out that I made myself holding hands with Hikakin on the picture.
“Anggita! This is cute! You both holding hands just like on a date!”
OH NO! I’ve broke my promise to be a non-delusional fan on this fandom! But at least I can release all of my feelings to the drawing and feel better. Then suddenly my heart flutter. I didn’t know why.
Some hours later, Hikakin uploaded a selfie on his way to JPX, with goofy face — that is featured all the way from Asahi to Livedoor News and, surprisingly, Nikkei — and the blue suits that passed the suit guide list curated by my senpai. I can finally see the tie he picked for this suit and my heart beats to the rhythm of the rearranged version of YouTube Theme Song. It successfully put a big smile on my face. The biggest since the last time I put an honest smile on my face in 2016.
In a flash, I suddenly assume that the oozing aura I felt today is because of the color of Hikakin’s suit; which is blue, my favorite color.
This is kinda sentimental, but it brings back to the day when I said to the class in my elementary days that my color is blue. At that time, I was so sick of the color pink because of the stereotype that “Pink is girls’ color and blue is boys’”
I embrace my inner tomboy — which later became my inner queer self — at that day, I believed that girls can love the color blue without being judged. I didn’t know I have embraced feminism and gender equality since very little.
Hence around 80–90% of my belongings are in the color blue. My friends know that if it’s blue, it’s mine.
Later I realized the psychological effect of the color since I found out that I’m suffering from the panic attack. Blue is the color of calm, serenity, wisdom, loyalty, truth, and focus. In the chakra, it’s the color of Vishudha, or throat chakra, which associated the power to communicate. I might looked like lacking of this in verbal communication but people said that I’m good at communicating with blog posts and my fanarts.
Some times ago, an anon on my CuriousCat told me that I’ve been smart enough to choose the hue as my favorite. But actually, it chose me, not the opposite.
The color has helped me becoming who I really am, and someday I’ll dye my hair blue to strengthen the impact.
Seeing your favorite people rocking your favorite color can also ooze the chroma-effect, apparently.
What’s your favorite color? Do you have any sentimental, chroma-experience with that? Let me know in the comments down below!
xxx
Gicch
