It’s good to not know what you want to do in life

I recently graduated secondary school and one of the major stress factors of my last year was the pressure to know what course I wanted to do in college. Most of the people I know in my year didn’t exactly know what they wanted to do either. We had small ideas of our dream careers but I’m pretty sure we were all terrified that things might not work out the way we wanted them to or worse, we turn out to not be good enough.

Maybe we were all intimidated by the mentality that our college courses are our certain career paths. Obviously, they are not. There are many examples of people who are currently doing things completely different from the college courses they took. But, of course, that did not assure us that it’s okay if things don’t perfectly fall into place the first time.

Many of us in my year are in college now, and most of the people I’ve talked to seemed delighted with the courses they are currently studying. Even though some people did not get their first choices, everyone seemed happy or at least contented.

On the other hand, I am not in college. Not because I did not like the course I was offered but because I had to take a year off. It’s a complicated story. I’ll tell it to you some other time. I deferred Computer Science in Trinity College Dublin. I love messing with technology and making cool stuff, so I actually want to do the course. But I also love making art and writing and doing other interesting things. I’m the kind of person who does everything. That made me very confused.

So I meditated and began to sort things out.

For my year off school, I decided to explore art and business. I am taking art classes online… via Youtube, and art blogs and Behance and following artists. I’ve created a lot of work already. Since I have this abundance of quite decent artworks on my shelf, I decided to make use of them and sell them online. I’m not a business type person so I know nothing about running a business. That’s not a problem because I can always learn.

I don’t know what exactly I want to do in life. My ideas are still quite vague. This is why I am just doing whatever I can. At first I was doubting myself because I truly think nobody will give a darn about my online art shop. Also, I don’t know if this is what I’m actually meant to do.

I realised if you worry on immediately figuring out what your “true calling” is, you’re wasting so much time. Instead of waiting something to happen, make things happen. If you don’t know what your strengths and weaknesses are, then try out different things. Don’t say you have no time to do something, because you do. You’re just being lazy.

Not knowing what you want to do is an opportunity for you to experience and fall in love with new hobbies and skills. Turn the seemingly negative feeling of having no direction in life into a motivation to create many directions for yourself to follow instead. Life is not a boy band. It’s not just one direction.

Two roads diverged in a yellow wood… and I took the one less travelled by and saved a pin of the other one on Google Maps in case the first one sucks.