Ok, but don’t proceed to tell me what you think men do or what men should do to accommodate your feelings.
And you say only 10 men in you entire life valued you beyond your physical appearance. That no male cashiers ever said a friendly greeting to you, no male teachers congratulated you on a good grade, no men ever struck up a polite conversation with you or welcomed you or even acknowledged your existence.
Do you know what being just nice as a man grants you in society? Complete invisibility. I have talked to female friends that lamented no men approached them at a social outing. Every time, further review indicated that short of being noticeably foul-smelling, some men were trying to initiate interaction with her in a polite, friendly way — which is not attractive and is automatically forgettable. Its not that men didn’t hit on her, it’s just that the right kind of men didn’t hit in her, all else forgotten. I’m not tall, white, handsome, rich, etc. and thus I am invisible and I have come to like it in its own way.
So I am incredulous at your claim that 50% of the world thinks of you as nothing but arm candy, but that only 10 men have appreciated you in life. You also seem to imply that if a man is attracted to you he cannot truly appreciate you, which is also a ridiculous claim.