You wake up in the morning. You stand in front of the mirror looking at your reflection. Your smooth skin reminds you of the scars you’ve left on someone else’s and the creases on your forehead nudge you about the things you shouldn’t have done. How do you love yourself when all you see are your flaws?
I’ve always assumed that loving someone irrevocably and beyond any reason and logic is hard, but it isn’t. Loving yourself is hard. Loving yourself enough to pick your own broken pieces and stitch them together is hard. Loving yourself is hard when you don’t know where to begin with and which part of you needs more love than the others. Maybe you’ll not be this damned if you knew, but who are you kidding, you were never the one to know. Loving yourself is hard especially when others find you perfect but all you discover are more and more of your mistakes which slowly engulf you, define you, and then drown you. Loving yourself is probably hard when your mouth reminds you of the ugly words you’ve uttered or the ones that you can never take back. Loving yourself is dauntingly hard, I know. But you have to wake up each morning and choose yourself above everyone and everything. Because it’s like fighting a battle with a cause. It’s hard but it’s for your own good. Loving yourself is a lot like a girl whose smile refuses to reach her eyes and yet she tries. It’s a lot like loving a certain boy in your own little screwed up manner. He makes you feel like an imbecile but in his presence, all the pieces of your jigsaw puzzle come to life. Loving yourself is so much like a longing that you yearn for years but never truly fulfill. But you should. Your thoughts, your flaws, the ugly and the beautiful parts of your mind and your body, your broken heart, your incomplete stories — you’ll grow to love each and every inch of you. It’ll be hard but it’ll be worth it.
But as on today, you should start loving yourself. A little more than ever.
Tune for the day: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dKlgCk3IGBg