something happened today.

it was of the phenomena similar to a deja vu, but not in the sense of familiarity, but of a life changing variety. kind of like leaving home to go to boot camp, or walking through the airport on your way to live out of the country for the first time, or leaving for your next duty station, getting married, finding out your pregnant, finding out your pregnant the second time, getting divorced, or getting on a plane to California after buying a one-way ticket. actually it’s a lot like stepping off a cliff, knowing your life will never be the same again. every relationship different in some way. the connection still there, still strong, but in the way you get great phone service, when your miles apart, and you know deep down inside, this may be the last time you talk to each other. It’s the same thing with leaving … that last hug, those last tears, that last kiss…. that last goodbye. there’s a knowing somewhere inside, this moment my life changes. This moment forward, an unknown journey that’s “exciting and frightening at the same time,” but the frank awareness of what I really feel doesn’t include being afraid. i’m ready to be me. i’m excited about the unknown. it’s where I have my most intimate times with God. those moments and memories of Who God is and how much i mean to Him. you know? it’s part of the great adventure of life. yes, something happened to me today. A wonderfully simple reminder. life is precious, a gift. each moment to be treasured. so that’s today for me. on the outside it might not look like a big deal, but deep in my soul a profound shift in my world, in my heart. not really sure what that means. just thought i’d share. and to let you know, it’s okay. that makes it all worth while, all exciting. you know? it’s amazing how time is not really something you can call concrete is it? it’s like that with these kind of days. they are very few and far in-between throughout a life-time. treasure them.