Poem — I couldn’t Grow Roots in the Sand
What brought me here?
Was it the money?
A child and a baby in tow
A husband stranded from visa whoa
A mother angry for religion sake
An unknown land, an unknown pace
Some gifts were gained
A mother`s love, for ties to our precious ones
Hidden gifts can always be found
We scrambled hard to build a new life
You name it, it was hard to settle in
We made it work, our home at least
At work, I had a hidden beast
I gave my all, with love and pride
I felt connected with my background
Combined with my love for all around
I worked relentlessly, with heart and soul
And surely, my rewards will come
If not on this Earth, then in good faith
What brought me here?
The year dragged on
My first colleague saw what was going on
He left me alone, with chaos abound
A new colleague in tow, with no background
Teach him from scratch work even harder
Surely my rewards will come
The chaos continued, she showed her fangs
He gladly let me work so hard
What’s happening? Why double standards
From work I get so many rewards
Her Fanginess, however, shows her true side
Love for he and rage for me
He nears to me and my whole family
He gets too close, he gains our trust
Tried to break my loving home
He lost at this, my bond is great
His anger turned with Mrs. Fangy
Joined forces were now turned upon me
Why is this happening? I work so hard
Work from the soul and give to all
Surely my rewards will come
Something is wrong, I do feel love
The love is coming from those that count
The students soar, I grow new bonds
Her fanginess enters in every way
Why tell me things that aren’t true?
Why put your problems on to me?
Do it once, I can move on
But every day the same abuse
What is my crime? Avoiding passes?
Avoiding talk of switching families
Of uncomfortable talks and crossing boundaries
I cannot let him have his way
It’s defined as rape and like so many
The victim is the one to blame
Surely even without rewards, there is a truth, but it must be found
I can’t believe it, not in this country
They say the woman is protected
The Supreme Judge, swore to my truth
But someone here has magic powers
Connections are the strength of the hour
So now we must investigate
People come to find the truth
Is this when my rewards will come?
What`s this? Those of them that actually see..
They disappear seems they were fired
What kind of investigation are you running?
Underneath me, and under my roots
They gnaw at me, and poison my fruit
It happened like nothing I ever saw
My confidence now from endless meetings
Together they made a combined hallucination
I do know me, but they are strong
Being fair, I search hard in the mirror
Is there something to what they say?
Who cares about the ones that count
Her Fanginess has all the power, the evil man is lashing out
The very man that walked around as if he knew where goodness lay
It is what brought him close to me
Now I know he did not have it
It was in ME he tried to grab it!
And anger came and lies exponential
All around me there was no strength
People were just full of fear
But what could scare them? Was it a power?
And now I know what brings them there
They leave their lives, head to the sand.
We did not come with the same hope
Why would someone leave their good land
And live their lives to try to change
This new home to what they once had
Put down the locals, insult the culture
Complain about your unkept maid
Who are you now? You really have changed
For those of us that work from the soul
Who refuse to change, who want to learn
This place will never bear a fruit
There can be green in a desert climate
But what eats the roots? Is it the heat?
Or is it something even bigger?
Is it the poison of the oil?
This poison has unimaginable strength.
It feeds on greedy. It feeds on hate.
Where is the problem? Follow your finger.
Dig in the ground and find the cause
The problem is not here or there
It’s greed you see and easy power
For those of them without real strength
Are threatened when they come to see
A genuine growing fruiting tree
You changed my life you changed my family
You insult me to choose your bounty
But what about the ones that count?
The people we have come to serve?
I worked for them, this cannot change
And surely my rewards will come
For now to those with little strength
Do not ask what really happened
They concentrate with noses down
They do not want to know the truth
For this may take their oil away
You must understand it’s easier this way
They say I am one, and they are many
But here we have the real mistake
If I was one you have a point
But look around
This happened before it`s happening now
My students say the evil man
Continues with them in front of all
Her Fanginess can never manage
She threw her oil on my roots
She`s not alone she had some help
They swept it all under the carpet
But they forget, it`s really awkward
That every carpet must be aired out
There is an end, they do not see
I sleep at night, I know my truth
Among themselves they are so nervous
Anger was their driving force
I sleep at night I look in the mirror
No one can ever take that away
My roots are deep, they will remain
Oil is not what makes me grow
They tried so hard but could not win
No matter what truth shall prevail
I can look back I know I found
What truly lies under the ground
The oil may prevent some roots
When truth is there you come to find
The reward in me and everywhere
The strength is me; the strength’s the truth.
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