I’ve watched too many black and brown people die, hoping to appeal to the very white people killing them.
No you haven’t. I am guessing that you have witnessed a total of zero people die at the hands of “white people killing them.”
Your use of hyper emotional drama makes it obvious that you feel the need to portray yourself as some kind of victim; a brave survivor and warrior against some kind of imaginary oppressor. But I am sorry dear; nobody is buying it. Every teenager in the world feels the need to do it. It just smells of incoherent childish rebellion against nothing in particular. You will feel better when you grow up.
And no: I hate to burst your “revolutionary” bubble; but you live in one of the safest and most tolerant societies in human history: Bad news I am afraid — nobody is trying to kill you.