I don’t know what happens to me. I am so focused at times and others I don’t know what to do next.

If I trust others to make my decisions, well not mine. I would never do that. Make decisions on my behalf. I need to believe in their decision making skills. But, things go wrong, in spite of planning. I don’t like it.

Then I am forced to make more decisions. I have decision making burnout. I would love to have someone, anyone who can just take over and tell me what to do.

The only problem is trust. Trusting in one’s intent to get the outcome, I desire. Communication can be a funny thing. By that, I mean unclear no matter how understood I believe I am. Unfortunately, I don’t always communicate as well as I think I do.

I have learned I expect people to be experts intuitively knowing when, to make a decision on my behalf. When and if the opportunity presents itself. Not be afraid to do it. How hard can it be, if it saves time, trouble or money.

Common sense, right. At least I would think that is what it is, my only requirement with that is if I ask why, there should be a good explanation.

I make instinctual decisions all the time. I don’t care what it is about. Replacing all logic, sometimes. I just know, when I am right I usually spend my time

convincing others to believe me and calculating risks. I don’t know how to teach someone when to go with gut especially, if I require logic and not spidey sense.

I learned something here writing this. I have issues. Lol, no secret. That was a joke. Anyway, using one’s gut instinct is an earned practice around me.

But, based on what - logic. What is that?

I think logic is the mathematical response to calculated variables, equaling my desired outcome. But, logic is not everything. Know when to start and when to quit, hard sometimes.

Then comes our interpretation, omg. Based on emotions from experience. This is what makes me sick with people. I am Vulcan. I can separate my emotions, I expect others to do the same.

I don’t think it is too much to ask. Do what is best for the most benefits of the involved unless, otherwise stated.

GEESUS. Why wouldn’t anyone do this. Not looking at a bigger picture, I found. I can’t stand it. I am shocked by this way of thinking. What is the opposite of building.

Building a lasting rapport, isn’t that the thing to do. Long relationships. Negotiate with parties involved. What can you live with?

I have come up with a few questions to ask, helping cut to the chase:

“If you have a issue with your boy or girlfriend but, right before you discovered the upsetting thing you guys, were planning to have sex.

Would you bring up the issue before or afterwards.”

My answer: Before.

“Assuming you did have sex, do you think you could or would still be mad at them.”

My answer : Yes

“Would sex be a factor determining the above answer. “

My answer here is obvious, based on the above answer. No it would not.

A boyfriend said, one time after sex when I told him don’t think I am not still mad at you. “How can you still be mad at me after that.” My response was, “What does one have to do with the other.”

Nothing.