I was really into Vipassana meditation for a while. It worked much better than any antidepressant. My mind was very clear. I knew how I felt, I knew what to do. It was rather amazing. It took an hour a day of meditation to maintain this state of mind. No problem — you feel rested, you don’t need as much sleep. But after a while it felt artificial. I felt like I was leaving a part of me behind. Meditation allowed me to live in a part of my mind where there was virtually no pain, but I thought the other part was still there, waiting for me to come back. So I did. I stopped meditating. That’s the same reason I stopped medicating. As long as there’s pain, I want to feel it til it’s done with me and leaves on its own. Just my experiment, feeling my way along. I so appreciate the conversation we are having.