Foreword: Whats at stake…
It‘s everything.
It‘s that simple. Sometimes I don‘t seem to understand that. But when I put everything I got in the work that turns out to be way more than my profession — there is a lot more to loose than just a client — a job or anything else.
It presses where it hurts. Because the only thing that will coexist next to the constant stream of creativity is the doubt — more specificly, the self — doubt.
The one question I fear the most everyday.
Am I good enough? Really? That silent monologe that goes on in my mind. Really? Come on — there are so much more, so much better. Why the hell do I waste that time by doing something like that?
And the best part — or — more accuratly — the worst part is, that no matter how many show you their support, the one that tells you ‚meh — i dont really like it‘ will be haunt you at night — giving strength to the silent voice my head.
It paralyses the me, not upfront, but always in the back in my head. Heck, I can picture that bastard that told me I suck the first time 10 years ago like it was freaking yesterday.
Why doesn‘t that go away?
I think, it‘s important — it sucks really hard — but it‘s really important.
Because first of all it keeps everything I do in perspective. And it‘s the bullshit filter we all value outside our own comfort zone because it prevents us from believing everything the ads tell us..
The point is — there — with judging others — we are really fast. In a blink of an eye — we swipe the work of some other individual away — and we don‘t care at all. Because it‘s how we set up that filter.
The second thing that it does — that self awareness (a big word, I know — but remember it! ), is to give me light when I head through the darkness and the rough on the way to the fulfilment I promised myself to chase and hunt.
Face it, you will lose a lot of compagnions on that way — who lack persistance or loose their focus. People — friends or business partners who are just in for the money, the whatever they think they will find at the end of that jungle or people who just kind of want it.
Now here is the thing about dedication. Either you are in — or you aren‘t. It‘s everything — and everything else.
That is the distinction that is the key. As soon as you can tell the difference, you realize that there will be nothing that stands between you and the dream you chase.
I first got exhausted when I thought about the amount of work I had to put in.
That will change over time.
Hard work will keep me up at night. It will prevent me from having brunch-sundays or afterwork-mojitos on a thursday. But it will also be the toolbox that allow me to achieve anyting I can imagine — and beyond!
So — the voice in my head that tells me I‘m not good enough yet, leading to the self awareness that tells me ‚yeah — probably not‘ — which leads my eyes to the watch on my wrist and there is the change of mind.
I DONT STOP WHEN I‘M TIRED — I GO TO SLEEP WHEN I‘M DONE!
I keep going, getting up early — to pursue the goals. I will go through the rough. I will keep going.
Because deep down I know that all the speedbumps and the pain on the way is worth it and it also allow me to be great.
Probably not in 10 minutes or 10 days — but in 10 years for sure!
So — what‘s at stake? Imagine that you want something as bad as you wanna breath.
If you can‘t imagine that — talk to a friend of yours with asthma.
