My body is tired

Tarila Ajuesi

7 min readMay 26, 2024

Admitting that I’m sick is such a big deal for me.

Anyhoo, let’s delve into the patch patch

There are too many doctors in this O/G

They ought to send them to surgery and all of them men men

Hian!

Whenever I’m hungry for a particular food at any point and I can afford it, I’m grateful to God.

Super grateful.

It’s not always the case, but at least I can. Jesu Seun.

I had a phase when I was suddenly worried about what I’ll do with myself post house job. Thank God for a God that is always with us. God just reminded me that who has been keeping me? Sha, resting and trusting God’s plan for my life

Bob wig for a birthday gift?

Seems I’ve been ranting a lot on my WhatsApp status hence the less updates here, but even though

The goal of this place is to have somewhere to fall back on and laugh at myself in the future. So I shall push through

We have these morning reviews where cases seen are discussed and learning points are shared and it’s the most dramatic thing ever.

Some house officers attend out of fear of getting punished, I attend for the drama😂😂😂😂

Different people, different drama. It’s so hilarious

There’s one guy there that I strongly believe just likes to hear his own voice, nothing else. He go dey correct grammar like say he be English teacher

Oniyeye

I’ll never get used to the fact that people think I’m a troublesome person. A cool kid like me?? Nah.

What did I do? I’m always making comments on our house officers group chat especially when there’s no light or water. But that does not mean I’m troublesome nau😭😭😭😭

lol

They sent me out of ward rounds to go and wear shoes. I was wearing crocs.

Omo, we walk around to much to be subjected to wearing just shoes😭😭😭😭

But who am I ? I go obey

They said it’s official rounds. Ki Jesu gbakoso

My head feels very heavy and my neck hurts so bad. It’s giving meningitis (God forbid!!)

But I currently feel really sick. I don’t fall sick often so of course I dont know what to do with myself. My solution to things is usually eat and sleep and that does not seem to be working. I’ll try again tho

I hate the pain I’m feeling all over. I’m just so uncomfortable

‘You will do a weekend call because you chose to be cheeky during morning review. Who do you think you are?’

Haq haq

Humility comes with the training.

But but, did they not say we are supposed to be proud?

What did I say about these morning reviews again??😂😂😂😂

Comedy show!!!!

I think it’s best to do calls with the same people you’ve done calls with before. Because why did this matron not let me take this delivery because she does not trust me — if it’s that my other madam now, she would have allowed me.

Anyways, cheers to many more obstetric examinations till I can identify stuff

The mosquitoes in this call room are probably why I’m sick

For context: in O/G, you must sleep over when on call. You can’t go and sleep and come out when there’s an emergency. You have to be on ground to attend to the emergencies. That’s likely because their emergency response is different from that of the other departments — no casualty officers to deal with emergencies before you come

Seeing a big patient whose lines are obviously difficult.

I’m still thinking of my life and patient goes, see as I full ground now, my veins dey hard to find oh

😂😂😂😂😂😂

I give up

Thank God I escaped siting her line

So yeah, this is me properly admitting that I’m sick. And it’s looking like malaria

I always feel somehow (professionally) when I’m unable to prescribe antimalarials based on the fact that I’ve used it before. We’d be trying to prescribe antimalarials and someone will go, ‘I’ve used it before, it’s not very effective’

Or when my friends are specifying which antimalarials work for them or not

During my call this week, at about 4am, one of my chiefs just noticed that I wasn’t looking well (bless her heart). Prior to that, I’d been looking for PCM (paracetamol) for the neck pain and headache that wanted to end me😭😭

Anyway, she insisted that I go to sleep. But as the responsible human I am (don’t do this at home kids), I could not leave my colleagues to do everything because we had some things on ground — giving drugs and preparing for consultant ward round (which is a big deal) — then attending to patients that come during the call

So I forced myself and gave medications. Gosh, I actually felt very sick. My head and body was hurting all over. This is bad

I hurried and went to freshen up to resume work as if I was not running on an hour of sleep. That same chief saw me later that morning and insisted that I can’t keep working when I’m obviously sick.

I was really doing my best to not attract attention — I just told my people how it’s doing me

During the consultant ward round, this particular chief informed all the consultants on my behalf

Then this consultant asked me what gave me the right to come to work without taking care of myself 😭😭😭

I keep getting reminded that there are sensible senior colleagues. He also insisted that I do not treat myself, so I had to go to the accident and emergency and of course that took more time than I would have liked. The doctor there gave me an antimalarial, INJECTION!!

So here goes nothing

Omo, being sick is expensive oh. One of my chiefs told me once that it’s easy to be prescribing stuff for patients to buy without realizing how financially draining it is. I always remember that statement and empathize with patients since then.

But having to spend that much on drugs, omo. Health is wealth fam

It’s funny that you will be sick and people will think you are feigning the illness to leave work.

Note to self: no send them

It’s not until you drop dead

My body is just generally tired

Ndi ofe mmanu

My colleague said this is what they call Yoruba people. ‘People of oil soup’😂😂😂

I honestly do not miss having to leave my room at night to give night drugs. I’ve been trying to think of what I’ve been doing with my evenings these past few months

Buy food with my last card. Absolutely!!!!! Anytime, any day 😂😂😂😂😂

I’m so irresponsible. But it’s food😂😂😂

A medical student told me she loves how I attend church regularly as an house officer and it encourages her that starting house job will not be a reason for her to stop church.

Tears inna me eyes 😭😭😭

I’m sure I’ve said why I make sure to always attend church here. It’s a covering tbh. If I don’t go, I don’t want to know the kind of life I’d be leading here. It would be so unsatisfactory and I’d be drowning in too much negativity

I’ve found that God is indeed my hiding place so putting structures in place to ensure I can get that whether I want to or not has kept me.

So, I’ll go to church regularly, as long as it does not affect my work

Cool kid pro-max

Let’s have some pictures of me being an absolute Gen Z (which I still don’t accept sha. Again, I just dress like them most times and that’s for comfort)