Learning to Love Memory Lane
To understand myself, it’s often important for me to go back to the place I grew up.
I don’t like to believe it. In fact, I like to avoid it. However, it’s easy to forget how much we’ve been through to become the people we are.
I can often think to myself how much I’ve developed in the past year, but what about the seismic changes that occurred over the course of my youth; do they no longer maintain validity?
As is the case with most teenagers, I spent the majority of my time, outside of school, in any and every green space I could find. Relaxing. It’s incredible to think how much time I spent in nature. Though not as much as I would have liked, it’s infinitely more than I am able to find today. As I walk through the green pastures by the Turnham Green station, I cannot help but find myself somehow not present…
Somehow, I was lost. Not geographically, as my feet found their way without my mind to guide them, but I was mentally on another planet. In another space. In another time.
I thought back to the many memories I have of this Green. From my first kiss to running away from thieves in the darkness. And I felt bliss.
All we have left of times gone by are our memories. And even those, we lose. To be able to fully immerse ourselves in the present is important. But to keep remembering the past has value too.
We are not people born yesterday. We were born many years ago. Our achievements today cannot be put down to the things we did last week, they are the result of many actions we have taken over the course of our lives.
I am grateful for having made it this far: and you should be too.
Do not be surprised when someone speaks of the past like it is yesterday, because often its value is just as pertinent in their minds. It helps them remember how to keep living, how they continue to grow each and every day: That learning is a life-long experience.
My grandmother taught me this. She loves to re-live the past and revel in the present, writing down memories and quotes in her little grey book of wisdom each and every day.
I would not be the person I am today, without having spent this time with my friends on the green. I would not be the person I will be in future, without remembering the times I spent with my friends on the green.
I want to spend more time with my friends on the green but, more accurately, I want to create new memories. Form new bonds. Lead new lives. With every new sun that rises, this will be my aim: To lead my future by following my past…