Oh, alto. You’ve got me bawling my eyes out.
I read this, went back and read the other, came back to this. Together, they are quite the read: This second piece rounds out the first, fills in the gaps and addresses it with balance and (as you say) clarity. What you’ve been through, I wouldn’t wish on my worst enemy. I suspect there is no greater pain in life than watching our loved ones suffer. I don’t know if feelings like this could ever go away, and I don’t think we’d really want them to.
Thank you for sharing this with us, Allan. For me, it reminds me of how lucky I am to have the good people in my life who stick around when things go to shit. I want to make sure they know how I feel about them.
Also: I’d like to shout out to all the hospice/palliative care nurses of the world, the unsung heroes of grieving families.