Speak up…I Didn’t Hear You

The Things We Say in the Silence

We all have an internal dialogue that breaks through to our conscious awareness as waves break upon the shores of beaches. At times, the dialogue is gentle and soothing, but it may also take the form of the most tumultuous of storms. What lies below the surface, however, is an ocean of feelings. Feelings, conversations, unspoken words, so much that may be unaddressed for many of us.

So I ask, what are you feeling, but not addressing with yourself? Do you have any fears that you are unwilling to admit? Any worries? Any concerns? I know that one fear I have, is that on some level, I feel incapable of breaking free, and truly living the life of freedom I long for. I also have a fear that I may not be able to achieve this in enough time to share my idea of success with my family.

When I thought about it, it was difficult to admit that I felt that way, because I had to go deeper — searching for the root — to figure out why I felt that way. What things have I accepted as true in my reality, that have kept me frozen? What was I telling myself, as well as being told, without words? What behaviors, ideologies, and ways of being did I observe and internalize as a truth etched in stone?

I would have found myself going down a rabbit hole if I was not careful with this self-imposed analysis of my emotions. In fact, I did on a few occasions. I have written about it previously (not in great detail), but I suppose that is when I experienced my dark nights of the soul. They came at a time when everything I was harboring — even from myself — rose to the surface and demolished any barriers to my truth. As emotionally draining as it was to live through that, I feel it was very helpful in my growth. I also feel that I have a better relationship with myself, and the perceived divide — between my soul’s desires and how I act and think — has been minimized.

Speaking from my personal experience, I would encourage anyone to take a few moments regularly (daily, weekly, monthly, whatever suits you) to get in tune with your Self and listen to what is truly going on. Regular practice is so beneficial as it enables you to have a more open connection with you. So, what are you saying within the silence? How do you really feel?

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