January the First: Laissez les bons temps rouler, hopefully

In keeping with tradition, it’s time to make new resolutions to better myself and the one I’m really trying to stick to is writing at least every day and publishing it. This hopefully accomplishes a couple things: exposure, therapy, and growth. I could grow my readership, I can vent to a blank space that literally cannot judge me, I can look back and tell myself that everything I did made me evolve as a person and I know more because of that. Not that I’m expecting to be famous in a year because I am just screaming into the void. It’s not like I’m showcasing any real “talent”, per say.

Either way, this is good. Manifesting that good energy for this upcoming year. I need it because I’ve been surviving off of Lexapro and Red Bulls for the last three months, especially working in retail. This whole shelter-in-place has really drained me. Of course, I do miss eating outside and being able to go out as I please. I also miss being able to actually see people’s faces. I think seeing just people’s eyes is giving me back misconceptions about what people really look like. It’s like a really long extended dating game. The ones where you can’t see who you’re talking to and it’s supposed to be a big reveal at the end. You ever think that people are truly disappointed when they see the person on the other side? I know it’s about emotional connection and maturity but looks count for people too. Not saying it’s justified, more so being realistic. It’s happened to all of us.

Oh well, dating shows and new goals aside. Happy New Years’ everyone. Stay safe.