Watched The News Tonight

Recently, I watched the news. On cable TV. With commercials. It was one of few times that I’ve done that in years.

I was horrified by what I saw, viscerally angered. (But, I suppose that’s the point.)

I thought to myself, “We have become so blind to the brainwashing that they’re now doing it right in front of our eyes.”

Then I wrote a poem. Here it is:


2016 News Broadcast
I watched the news tonight:
Painted faces, wax people, angled poses
Matured news anchor with youth painted. pretending.
A suicide attempt.
Rise in shark attacks.
Story on the Olympics.
(I know how they’re picked, from most exciting to least.)
— Break for ad —
Anti- Hilary campaign
Movie with men pretending to be younger than they are.
with young women pretending to be older.
(Note to self: never let my children watch tv)
Beer commercial [same theme].
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I watched the news tonight:
I watched with horror
I watched with fright
I realized why I ran from that place
Why my journalism degree may go to waste
I saw the hate I saw the crime
I saw candidates smearing grime.
I see the reasons, I know them well
The reason why they’ll go to hell
I’m sorry to say it, but I know it’s true
Captitolism has killed us, the red white and blue.
I watched the news tonight
Their waxy faces growing bright
I watched with horror
I watched with fright.
I see it all, I see it clear
Ads for drugs, for food, for those not near.
The problems are here, right before our faces.
Why do we keep looking in other places?
Turn it all off and look within.
It’s the only way to make the world spin.
Train yourself to see the good.
Release yourself. Understood?
I am young. But I have seen.
I know the way things’ve been,
things aren’t always what they
seem.

[Many of you may not know this, but I graduated with a degree in journalism. I was training for four years with the big, bright, glossy dream of becoming the next hostess of Good Morning America.

In 2012, two years before I graduated, I moved to the East Coast — knowing that the only way to get closer to my dreams was, literally, to get closer.

I scored an internship with a news station. I received calls for interviews with MTV in NYC. I moved on to intern at a larger-scale Television News station in Boston. I was on set with people like Katie Couric and Jimmy Kimmel. (Please excuse my name dropping, I’m not proud of it.) I was networking with all the right people to get me deeper in the industry I had long dreamed of joining.

Then hurricane Sandy hit. She rammed into the East Coast and left parts of the country looking like a third-world country. I lived in a dark basement in a strange neighborhood in Boston. Everything was flooded. Trees were down. I didn’t have electricity. Luckily I had my grandmother close by. She lived alone at the time, and I made one of the best decisions of my life by going to stay with her in that dark, cold time. [She has since passed, but her lessons, her way, continues to one of the brightest guiding lights in my life.]

Simultaneously, the 2012 election was happening and my presence in the newsroom was nonnegotiable. Despite the disasters that were happening, I was expected to be there (without pay) for all events leading up to, and, of course, for the actual election night.

So I was. I worked despite not having a car — taking the T through the rain, wind, snow and walking everywhere in shoes too uncomfortable for my feet, voices from the a day at the newsroom circling in my head.

Bad news. Bashing. Smear campaigns. Hatred. Worry. Catastrophe.

… and then I thought, “Why am I DOING this to myself?”

Working in the industry, slinging bad news, devising ways to get the highest ratings — it made me physically sick.

I was done.

Since then I have not worked in broadcast news. I believe that televised news is NOT, in fact, news. I believe it is entertainment, and should be viewed as such.

These are my beliefs, my opinions, and you are free to take them with a grain of salt. But as someone who has seen the media from the inside out, I warn all of my close friends to take the beliefs and opinions of those that they see on TV, with that same grain of salt.]

Just because someone is speaking on a televised news broadcast DOES NOT mean that it is in your best interest to listen to them.

Perhaps turn off the TV. Don’t look on social media. Do your OWN research. Look into your OWN heart. Make the decision on who to vote for based off of what you find.

We’re all in this together, my friends. Keep the faith.

Love & Light,

Tatiana