You know… The whole text is gorgeous and inspirational, but this part really moved me.
I’m no person of faith. Unfortunatelly. The lack of faith is constantly a problem I found within myself and it makes me sad… It’s not that I don’t belive in God. But I question things more than I think I should. More than it is healthy for me. As an example, I find myself making decisions and questioning them a few minutes later — when not forgetting them at all, but this is a whole other problem.
As a result, I feel this lack of faith and excess of questioning creating a dam between me and the river. Not only creatively speaking, but in life itself. And it’s specially hard because I… I can feel the river, it pressures me, but I can’t let myself drown in it. It’s odd and scaring… But necessary.
A lot of texts I read open my eyes to it a little bit, in one way or another. But is a damn strong dam (pun intended) I created around me, and to crack it will take me a long time…
Nevertheless, thank you for this beautifully written and inspiring story you shared with us.