Right now, many of us are experiencing a barrage of uncomfortable feelings stemming from this unprecedented global pandemic. Stress. Worry. Fear. Fatigue. A perpetual state of being overwhelmed. Restlessness. Maybe even anger and frustration. Sometimes it all feels so surreal, and that in and of itself can be draining. …


It’s almost July. More than half of 2020 is over, and life since March has felt like a blur, partly because I don’t feel like I have much to show for it, and partly because I’ve actually been incredibly busy despite almost always being home. How can that be possible?


“Happiness cannot be traveled to, owned, earned, or worn. Happiness is the spiritual experience of living every minute with love, grace, and gratitude.” — Denis Waitley

Earlier this week, my last living grandparent turned 96. I couldn’t see my grandmother because of quarantine, and I couldn’t send her any flowers…


Oh, hello Mother’s Day. What do days like this even mean? I cringe over Valentine’s Day (always have), and Mother’s Day also feels sort of contrived to me. Like I’m being forced to have a super pampered day (not gonna happen as a single mom, and it only half-assed happened…


Yesterday I ran while the kids rode their bikes. It was a perfect warm morning, minus quarantine. Not many people were out, so at least we didn’t have to crisscross the street too much trying to avoid other humans and their germs in this strange new reality.

Near the end…


Yesterday, exactly five weeks into this COVID-19 quarantine, I had a meltdown after dinner that ended with me abruptly turning off the cooking challenge we were all watching on TV and sending everyone to bed. Two-thirds of my kids didn’t want to eat their dinner but were trying to negotiate…


Oh, big deep breaths.

I’ve started feeling like a caged animal this past week. It started when Monday morning rolled up, the only thing distinguishing it from any other day of the week was the barrage of emails from every direction dumping passwords and instructions and things to do. The…


Anger was the topic of discussion in adult study at my temple. The timing was excellent because I had been feeling incredibly angry lately. There were many reasons why, and isn’t that how anger works? One thing sets you off, and that makes you irritable about something else, and something…


The waiting is the hardest part
Every day you see one more card
You take it on faith, you take it to the heart
The waiting is the hardest part

-Tom Petty

Last Wednesday was my late husband’s birthday. I woke up at 3AM fully alert, my body aware before…


I’ve been uninspired to write lately, partly because I have been swamped with work, single mothering, holidays, and I started my master’s in September…finally. Life is hectic, per the usual. But mostly I think the gears in my head have just been sort of spinning. And spinning. And spinning. …

Teresa Shimogawa

Human being trying to do good things in the world. Writes at www.houseofteresa.com

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