A Tattoo Story….

Anyone who knows me understands that I am far from a cookie cuter model of anything. I live life my way with a relatively positive outlook 98% of the time. I drift along with a core set of beliefs that I will not stray from. When I decide to separate from my wife, I had to admit some things to myself.. One of those things was that I had feelings for someone else that where so overwhelming, I could not think of anything else. While my marriage had been over for a long time, this gave me the courage to choose happiness instead of staying stuck where I was at. When I admitted to this other person that I had feelings for her, it was like a gate was opened that allowed every feeling I had bottled up to go out. To mark a change in my life, I decided to do some things that I had been putting off and one of those things was getting a tattoo.. March 2015 I had none.. March 2016 I had six! The process quickly became half art, half therapy. Last week I got my seventh one (pictured above) which is half of an emoji on Facebook Messenger of the Bigli Migli series by Sepideh Davoodi. This emoji quickly because the logo for our relationship. Me with my heart in my hand standing there hopeful for the day she takes it.. Of course she already has it but symbolically “take it”.

She is standing there with excitement but not reaching out for it. If you know us, you would laugh because these little guys do really fit us perfectly even in the way that they look. The obstacle in our path is fear. Fear that history will repeat itself, fear that we wont be good enough, fear that we wont be able to make it through. The silliest thing in our path is also fear. Fear that history will repeat itself, fear that we wont be good enough, fear that we wont be able to make it through… You see what we perceive as an obstacle is no more a barrier to happiness than a grain of rice because its based on something that we have no way of knowing. Its based on a past with other people that are so unlike what we have now that to try and compare the two cant be done. We may make mistakes, we may get some things wrong, we may build the most perfect relationship either of us have ever seen. What I do know for sure is that there is such a thing as a perfect match. We each know how silly the other one gets, and its one of the things we love the most. We can be happy sitting on the couch playing with her hair watching a movie because just touching her makes me happy to my soul. We can go do things together without any fear of someone saying thats stupid or complaining because we are not those types of people.. I look at her like she makes the earth move because she does! She looks at me with such love and such hope that I am such a better man because of her. We have so many connections, so many songs and so much love that it is enough to spark the biggest wildfire the world has ever seen. Life can and will be amazing when love is present!