Difficult level in spirituality

Naryani namostute 🙏

Who I am?

Nothing but this mind always make me fool.

Last some days I don’t know but I was feeling.

My health was totally bad

Don’t know why taking all medication and suppliments.

Boday aches every time feeling nervous without reason Beacuse of weakness.sometime feel so irritating Beacuse my body is weak and still my baby is crying for feeding .

Whole night he is on feeding

After morning everyday I felt there is no energy in my body .

And then remember sri maa words why this level is so difficult phase in spirituality.

Recently I felt some abdominal discomfort then I was going for checkup during ultrasound doctor said there is GB polymm 4mm.

found .I was stressed why every thing happened with me with little baby doctors can’t gave me proper treatment Beacuse effect of medicine may be effected baby through milk . Some time I don’t want to do sadhna because I was angry with mother divine . But I remembered sri maa words many peoples leave spirituality at this point . And also who I am to control this.

I am not a body .

Because after my postpartum anxiety when I was feeling better and enjoying everything . Every time new challenge comes in front of me .

But then a thought comes in front of me may be this is my test .

She is checking my faith and i realised still there is need of total surrender at mother divine feet .

Whatever happened with me for a reason.so why l am doubting on divine plan .

But this is also truth if you are not in a fit body you can’t do proper sadhana with concentration.

May mother divine bless all with good physical and mental health.

I am grateful for these obstacles also Beacuse this learn me something.

And divine plan are always better then us .

Gratitude 🙏

My humble obsience at my gurus feet 🐾

Because sri maa love and care gave me strength every time.

Om tat sat