Stop doing stuff and go home.

Today I didn’t do the stuff I had to do. Straight up didn’t do it. Drove on when I should have parked. I really could have done the errands, but the fear was too strong. Face bad sleep tonight because of some errands? Ehh… I’ll wait until everything is overdue and it’ll give me enough reason to hurt myself to do it.

Now I’m at home on the couch, equally proud of and frustrated at my decisions.

It was a big deal not to go straight to the bed when I got here so I am content with settling for the couch… like I said, equally proud and frustrated.

What I’m getting at here is that you should try not to put yourself down when you give up on doing stuff because of pain or fatigue. Like I need to tell you that, fellow chronic pain person, as I’m sure you understand but still continue to put yourself down anywhere from 20% to 60% of the time, depending on your mood. That’s okay. Let’s keep trying.