do they look for you

do they look for you
after they throw you away
after they
take your hand
to pull you down

they leave you there

when you cross paths
“how’ve you been
haven’t seen you in awhile”
i became a phoenix
after you threw me in the fire

how are your intentions
are they healthy
how many people have you dragged
into the fire

i only threw dust in your eyes
so you could feel
the pain i felt
when you blinded me

i am a product of torture
and rebirth
i am a product of pain
and relief
i am a product of war
and healing

you were a casualty
on my quest to perfection
i am healing
from your gunshots

i am tending to my wounds
tend to the hole in your heart
tend to the space in your soul
tend to the sharp edges on your tongue

do they look for you
after they throw you away
after they supply your weapons
and convince you there is peace
in wounding

do they look for you
after you do not recognize yourself
after you’ve lost your way

do they look for you
when you weep
when you regret your sins

do they look for you
when all you need is someone