I Ain’t Good

When I started with this blog I wanted to share about my faith and how I see life with Jesus in my heart, but this post will be totally different.

Last weeks I’ ve been feeling overwhelmed by college, by life, BY EVERYTHING, I feel like everything I do sucks (just like me). You might be wondering why is He writing about this? because this is the only way I have to let out my feelings, it’s not like oh I’m gonna share about my problems on Internet to have people’s attention” WRONG, I’m doing this because I’m so sick of this situation, sick of hearing voices in my head that say that everything I do suck, I try to be with a positive attitude but a mental battle is being held within me and writing was the only one solution that came to my mind, being an OCD guy with anxiety problems is not easy, yeah the struggle is real…

I do know that God loves me and will never forsake me, but right now I’m feeling alone, drowned in thoughts, I try to pray but I feel weak to talk to God I also feel that my faith is dying. Everyday is the same thing, unsatisified with everything I do, bad attitude, moody, with the desire of punching someone’s face because I can’t bear with this anymore and just drowned inside these dark and hopeless thoughts, I try to go out and take some photos but I feel that even my photos suck! I just want to ask you to pray for me, to get strenght, to get out of this situation and to start living with a different mentality and stop thinking that I ain’t good…