The experiment

Ever felt like there were two vastly different personalities dwelling in your body? Two polar opposites with entirely different reactions when it comes to dealing with situations? Well, this sentence kinda summarizes my life.

Hi! My name is Marcus (nice to meet you, uh, in text form LOL). Let’s start with a brief introduction.

Back when I was little, I get stressed a lot, be it under the pressure of performing in sports, or trying to reach even a fraction of my sister’s capabilities in academics. Being the only boy in the house with two sisters, I tend to become more sensitive and emotional towards the things around me. It is useful in a way, but the emotional toll gets to me, and it is some heavy stuff. Sometimes, I wished that I can be a different person.

When I was in secondary school, my secondary persona emerges. His name is Shawn. He is confident, articulate, and is able to achieve feats of physical prowess that I can’t (I guess its a mind-over-body thing?) But most importantly… He is hella annoying (hahaha)

<EH WAIT A MINUTE. WHAT ARE YOU TRYING TO SAY HUH YOU INGRATEFUL BITCH HAVE YOU FORGOTTEN ALL THE THINGS I DID FO>

And by annoying, I mean that there will be multiple times where he invades my thoughts and gives his two-cents. Not that I mind or anything (hahaha) but sometimes it gets in the way of rational thinking~

<BRO. JUST SHUT THE FUCK UP ALRIGHT. YOU SOUND LIKE A WHINY LITTLE BITCH. TO MY FRIENDS OUT THERE, CHEEEEEEERS GUYS! IM SHAWN, AND I’M CURRENTLY STUCK TO THIS RETARD OVER HERE AS MY PARTNER HAHAHA. OKAY FINE, LET’S GIVE HIM SOME CREDIT HERE. HE IS A PRETTY NICE GUY, PRETTY GOOD WITH PEOPLE, BUT SOMETIMES HE IS SIMPLY TOO AFRAID OF HIS GODDAMN SHADOW TO DO THE THINGS HE ACTUALLY TRULY WANT TO DO. AND THAT IS WHERE I STEP IN. HE WILL DIE WITHOUT ME ;D>

OKAY OKAY thanks for the intro man… So yeah. (hahaha)

Moving on~ As an avid communicator such as myself, I REALLY DO LIKE TO TALK. A LOT. To celebrate my first post today, let’s grace the event with a little poem:

I used to say whatever’s in my head
Till one day my annoyed friends said
You talk a lot
So create a blog!
And please just talk there instead…

HAHAHA 100% of this poem is totally untrue and unrelated to my current social situation right now <HAHAHAA FK YOU BRO ITS TRUE AND YOU KNOW IT YOU NOISY FUCK>

Hehehe… I guess you guys can kinda see the situation I have here. For myself alone, there are already MANY THOUGHTS AND OPINIONS that I would like to express. With Shawn’s weird perspective of the world invading my thoughts throughout my life, you can imagine the amount of thought and ideas running through my head all the time. There will be times, however, when i find myself alone, with no one to talk to. ITS HARD. IM SAD. I WANT A PLATFORM TO RELIEVE MYSELF OF ALL THESE <HAHAHAHA YOU WANT A TOILET BOWL OR SOMETHING, BRO?> having so many things to say can be detrimental to my mental health man. Its tiring as hell. I feel kinda depressed sometimes as well.

I was browsing through online forums one fine day, when one brilliant idea struck me. There IS someone that will always be there for me to say what ever it is that I want to say, all the time! A PERSONAL BLOG OF MY LIFE YEAAAHHHHH (who needs friends hahahahaha just kidding I love you guys~) It will be super fun to be able to talk about random things anytime we want!!! <WHO SAYS BLOGS ARE ONLY ENTERTAINING FOR THE READERS?>

So, the reason why I created this blog was to conduct an experiment.

for this experiment, I am going to create a blog and fill it up with 100 unique posts. At the end of it, I will check my mental state of mind to see if I have become more relaxed and… less uptight? If I am able to succeed in calming myself and get a happier outlook on life, I will highly recommend it to my depressed, lonely friends out there as well!!! This will be the SCIENCE PROJECT OF THE CENTURY<DUDE, YOU GOTTA CALM YOUR TITS MAN. THIS ISN’T A SCIENCE PROJECT, THIS IS SOME STUPID EXCUSE TO ABUSE THE INTERNET FOR DESTRESSING HAHAHA> IM SO PSYCHED NOW OMG AREN’T YOU?!?!?! So hold on tight ladies and gentlemen. The next episode of the experiment of my life will commence VERY SHORTLY~~~~~

<HAHAHAHAAHHAAHAHA NOW WE’RE TALKING LET’S GO LET’S GO LET’S GOOOOO!!!!!!!>

And to whoever that has been reading this,

YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL. OR HANDSOME. YEAH.

Have a nice day!!!

(AUTOBOTS, ROLL OUT BZZXXXXXTTCHHHHHSJDNCLANKCLANK)

Oops sorry. That was pretty cliche of me <DAMN STRAIGHT> shut up Shawn.